i never seem to update this. but i'm not really sure anyone is on here anymore anyways. school is coming to an end. it took twelve years, but i'm finally here. it's so weird to think that i'm graduating and going off to college. i'm going to have so much freedom, such a stress free life. i deserve this. it's almost scary though to think about leaving this. you live every single day for eighteen years under someone else's control, every minute scheduled for you, and even though you have some control over what you do and what you become, you aren't really free. and then all of the sudden your life is entirely yours. when you think about it that way, it's actually really scary. but what's scarier is knowing that i'm so ready for it. too ready. i've decided to go to umass amherst next year, and i'm pretty proud of it. every new thing i do just gets me more excited. i think my family is moving this summer too. to where i'm not sure. i know my sister wants to go to the west coast. but i guess we'll see what happens. as much as i hate this town, i'm not ready to leave it yet. i've become so close to certain people this year, and i'm just not ready to leave them. despite all of the bad things that have happened, everything is turning out pretty ok. so, i hope everyone is doing well. i'll be back soon