i left, and i'm here. i lost my computer for a month; getting it back was bittersweet. life seems to be a bit more interesting when it isn't hazed by electronics. maybe not more interesting, but less interesting. i think in this case they're one in the same. i have too much time to think about everything, but i can't manage to think about anything. it's a slow process, but i think i'll get there. i don't really have any other choice.