I'm amazingly confused right now. I've been sleepy for days and after one conversation I'm so awake it's sick. I'm on this crazy country kick which I've never been on in my entire life, I hate country I've said it time and again and now that's all I want to listen to. I realized why our conversations are so long tonight, it's cause we actually don't know each other at all. I dated this boy for 2 months solid then randomly for another two months and I know so little about him. That's why it was doomed from the beginning. I think that's why we're gonna make good friends, because I have so much to learn still, but I already know that we're not cut out to be in a relationship together. We're too similar and too different at the same time, a popular reoccurance in my relationships. I also know that I really miss having a boyfriend, not him incase anybody is going to interprate it that way and I know people will. The holidays are really bad for that for me, it makes me feel particularly lonely. And the weird thing is that I'm not even gonna be in town for christmas but still lonely is also a good word to describe my mood as well as confused. Why am I a crazy rambler at like 2 in the morning? Maybe I'll try going to bed again...Cya.