i never thought that i would go out with a guy that would pressure me to have sex with him. i feel so disgusting right now. i wish tonight never happened. i wish i would've never met him. no guy has ever made me feel the way he does. he makes me feel so low and unimportant. he makes me feel like no one will ever want me. i feel like i am never good enough for anyone. i am always missing something. i am so fucking sick of this. i can't even take it anymore. so you know what.. if i am not good enough for you.. then fuck you. i am sick and tired of trying to meet people's standards. all you people do is make me feel like shit about myself. you make me want to curl up in a ball and just die. i think i am going to go and take a long hot bath. maybe that will make me feel better.