i can't take the drama. not now. "i just want to go home so i can eat" "i'm soo hungry" just shut.the.fuck.up. leave then. bye. as if this isn't hard enough for me to deal with.. my "best friend" feels guilty eating at my house. i didn't want this to be weirder than it had to be. i am already going to not invite people over when i move into that smaller house.. but to know that my best friend doesn't even want to eat at my house.. and makes comments like she wants to leave.. makes me feel like dying. keep your fucking comments to yourself. if you decide you don't want to eat at my house..fine. you don't have to sit there and tell me how starving you are then. go fucking eat something. stop making it a big dramatic thing. fuck. i haven't wanted to cut this bad in a long time. i don't know any other way to deal with things. it's fucking pathetic. why do i always have to be the strong one?