my parents are really startin to really drive me upa fuckin wall!!!!!!!!! okay my mom n i never had really a super close realtionship like i couldnt tell her everything n like she would always yell at me a lot n stuff but like i guess are realtionship was fine. on the other hand my dad n i had like the BEST realtionship.. like he was my dad but he also was like my bestfriend. like really i could tel him anything n not expect to be totally yelled at sometimes not even yelled at at all... like i could tell him when i made out with a guy or once i leeked at school and i was able to call him like without even thinking about it and like he treated me with respect and like as a friend n not his daughter.. well now like things are really changin... my parents are divorced but there really weird soo like they date n stuff which i think is totally nutz.. like its weird they will be all lovey dovey n stuff or like not talk for weeks. well anyways they been hangin out n stuff n like turin against me it feels like.. like yesterday they both were yellin at me n i didnt do anything n they thought my attuide was bad or w.e n it wasnt n i ended up gettin grounded for doing nothin... n i dont have a say in anything anymore n there like givin me all these rules n stuff... * i think there afaird of me growin up* n we all were like fightin big time n stuff!! and today i was talkin to my dad but he was bein cool again n stuff n he said like since its "family day" then i should come over for a lil n stuff n see my grandma n then i can go hang out with my friendz n stuff til like 8 n then like go to dinner with him n my mom n then i can go out again n i thought that was fine n stuff n then he talked to my mom n she had like a totally different idea n they wanted to drive down to see my sister at college n stuff which means we would leave here at 5 get down there at like 7 go eat til like 8:30 ish talk til 9 then leave n get back at 11!!! s9o i would have NO time at all to hang out with my friendz n that just got me sooooooooooooooo pissed off!! n i started yellin at my mom!! n stuff n like i was bein really rude but i couldnt take it anymore!! n i was just like ur brainwashin dad so he can be just like u n stufflike that n she got really pissed at me n shes like go to ur room * and she hasnt like used that one in ages* and stuff n then my dad n i talked n i explained how mad i am n stuff n how we dont havea good realationship anymore n stuff cuz like yea n stuff n he understand n yesterday he felt really bad cuz is aid that but i couldnt take it anymore n stuff n i told him he just needs to get off my back n he understood n stuff cuz like im able to handle other problems cuz usually my parents are screamin at me every single min n stuff n so he realized that he does need to back off so he siad he would n stuff n then he said i didnt have to go tonite but i kno if i dont go my sister will think its rude n then again i'll be the bad one again just like i am usually so w.e i guess i'll end up going n sititn in a car for 2 hours not talkin but w.e... i feel better for gettin that out of my mind lol... got to go love u all!!!!! -gordon