Stuck in between the artificial world of the school and the real world of pain. The school causes the pain, and the school takes away every oppertunity to vent. I cant take this much longer. Noone seems to notice, maybe im hiding it all too well. Im thinking about things I probably shouldnt be thinking about. I FUCKING HATE THIS PLACE! A GOD DAMN PLASTIC MAZE OF NINE'O CLOCK BEDTIMES AND RESTRICTED DIETS! A FUCKING TOTURE CHAMBER OF "WE'LL TAKE THAT AWAY FROM YOU BECAUSE YOU LOVE IT". I JUST WANT TO DIE. I want to fucking slit my wrists and call it a god damn day. Im so sick of the restriction, im so sick of being forced into a tiny plastic box of conformation and not being allowed to breathe. As a fucking human being i need to be allowed to feel like im alive. Im not thier fucking pet. I fake contentment to make everyone around me happy, but inside im burning alive. Im falling fast and one of these days soon im going to crash and everyone is just going to be shocked cause noone saw it fucking coming. I want to drive pencils through my eyes. The fucking human race is so disgusting. We dedicate half of our fucking internet to sites that allow perverts to jack off on thier keyboards over what USED TO BE someones daughter, and is now a cyberslut who sacrificed thier dignity and pride for a couple extra bucks. Im sick of people who feel like they need to enslave other people because it makes them feel important. Im sick of people who need drugs to feel good because the jackasses in thier life stole all they had otherwise. Im sick of assholes who only think about themselves and run innocent people over while paving thier road to plastic happiness. I so sick of it all. But most of all, im so sick of people who pretend to care because they want to feel like they helped, and dont really care if they did. I dont want to be a part of it. I dont want to contribute to the destruction of a planet and the pervertion of an entire species. A species who claims that they are the "dominant" species on the planet. The very planet they destroy with each passing day. Fuck the human race. I choose not to participate.