Im trying to be happy, I really fucking am. GET THE FUCK OFF MY CASE. Im so sick of people. I want to fucking shoot myself. I did something stupid. Im so sick of this shit, I know I shouldnt have done it, I bought the pills from him, I took the fucking pills, I couldnt stand the mother fucking pressure, I went to band, I was so fucking out of it, I dont want to write anything. I dont want to sing, I dont want to play, I just want to curl up in a corner and die. I want to relapse so badly, Im trying so hard not to cut. I promised people I wouldnt. I have to try to be strong with it. I have to fight the fucking temptation. I swear to god I dont want to do drugs again, Ive said that ever since I fucked up my stomach. Now im doing it again. I have to stop, I have to try to be happy. Fuck you for killing me.