A few weeks back at school and things were getting back to normal. The sympathetic looks in the corrigors and gasps at the mantioning of my name, the long painful hugs and being let off homework had all ended. i had rejoined my friends ant managed to laugh again sometimes. But i still missed Keli. I always would. I wasnt strong enough for this, losing my best friend. it always sounded so cheesy but i really felt like a part of me was gone, had died along with her. We were so close, and i felt as if i would never get over this. I was falling. Falling into a life without her; life knowing I had done something so wrong, been such terrible friend that she would rather die that talk to me. One day after school, i came home to find a policeman at my door. He said they had found a letter amongst Kelli's things, for me. i couldnt speak. I nodded and ran to my ped where i opened it, my hands shaking. Mel, I'm so sorry. I know you dont believe me but i am. I love you so much. I no that if you are reading this then I'm... its the way it has to be, i cant live anymore, there is too much pain to make life worth living. if there was a way to do this without hurting you i would, anything. I never wan to hurt you, but i know you'll be better off without me. You've done so much for me and all I've done is fuck up your life. Cos thats what i am, a fuck up, and i dont deserve to be alive. You're the only person i'm writing to, yo're the only one that deserves it. Please. Know that im sorry. dont hate me. Please. I couldnt stand it if you hated me I'm sorry Goodbye Keli I cried, sharp salty tears. But crying wasnt enough...