Myspace bitches We held hands on the last night on earth. Our mouths filled with dust. we kissed in the fields and under trees, screaming like dogs, bleeding dark into the leaves. It was empty on the edge of the town, but we knew everyone floated along the bottom of the river. So we walked through the waste where the road curved into the sea and the shattered seasons lay, and the bitter smell of burning was on you like a disease. In our cancer of passion, you said, "Death is a midnight runner." The sky had come crashing down like the news of an intimate suicide. We picked up the shards and formed them into shapes of stars that wore like an antique wedding dress. The echoes of the past broke the hearts of the unborn, as the Ferris wheel silently slowed to a stop. A few insects skittered away in hopes of a better pastime. I kissed you at the apex of the maelstrom and asked if you would accompany me in a quick fall; but you made me realize that my ticket wasn't good for two. I rode alone. You said, "The cinders are falling like snow." There is poetry in despair, and we sang with unrivaled beauty, bitter elegies of savagery and eloquence, of blue and grey. Strange, we ran down desperate streets and carved our names in the flesh of the city. The sun has stagnated somewhere beyond the rim of the horizon, and darkness is a mystery of curves and lines. Still, we lay under the emptiness and drifted slowly outward; and somewhere in the wilderness we found salvation scratched into the earth like a message.

Just thought I would remind you all to pop on over to myspace and leave me some love And while your there you can also get myspace, if u dont have it already and tell me what it is Go now!!! Myspace! (Click here now!!)

I am still alive ♥ Get myspace... If you already have one, comment me and Ill add you... Myspace=Love xx <333

Well I'm really only writing this for the benefit of my lovely Taryn *mwahz*....And for anyone else who may care....Right now I would be out getting drunk like normal, but I'm not coz I'm sick....Sickness=gay, I hate it.... Also thought I'd update before I get Robbie's disease....Yes hello robbie, I love you muchly.... I followed the crowds and ended up with my space....Im addicted to it now, its owns my heart...Hah and don't I sound emo now, speakin of other things that own my heart...Ashley, haha I Sime, please hurry up and come back...We Miss you (we = me and sammy). ♥ If only the words I would start to say were the only ones you would want to hear. Too bad we can’t think back to better days; those days lost are too painful to recall. If I had a spine I could say the way, scratch that, I could show the way I feel about you. And I know you know, don’t say that you don’t. I’m almost positive here that you are well aware I’m completely devote and envoked by you. Any life style, this life style is nothing, is incomplete without you here. I’ll throw myself to the dogs here, just so you would know you are the only thing left in my mind at the end of the day.If only things could work out as I planned. I’d write you a song filled with every thought I’d ever think about you. Imagine this- you in all your beauty sitting perfectly as you do- enter me- singing my heart, throwing out myself for you. I’ve got a plan, ten hundred ways to steal your heart and make it mine. If you were ready I’d tell you- it’s only you. Who would guess that you could do this to me. It’s not enough, not enough until you’re mine. I love you’s stack up until they lose their meaning. I love you. In all it’s essence, in all your beauty- I can’t but help to feel the way I do. about you. ♥ But you couldn't last a lifetime. Caught between here and the days of it; carving her name across your arm with every wish. It's hit or miss... her. I told you so. I measured distance in lines departing the rest of my life.

No one understands what I feel for you at all… And this has never happened to me…for some reason, you have caught my eye…everything that I hate about boys, is in you and everything that I like in boys, you don’t have…I don’t understand myself sometimes…it’s funny because you always wonder why she doesn’t like you, but for the first time [e v e r] I saw you and how you act with her and no wonder!….you must get so worried or nervous or whatever because you act like an ass….I really wish I could tell you this in person…whenever you’re near me (for the most part), you’re just a normal person…I can only imagine how you act in public with her…We can have normal conversations and just be friends…yet I see this and for some reason this has no effect on how you feel about me I just can’t give up on you, no matter how much I know that you will never feel for me what I feel for you…not even close…how is it that the world works like that…I always see people who like each other…what are the odds that the person you like is going to like you back?…in my life it has never happened and I don’t know why my luck is so terrible….I wish for just one day that I could know what you were thinking when you are with me…it would be great to know the truth and not just what I want to hear… You are not the only person who has done this to me and I really don’t like it…it sucks when you don’t understand how much time and energy I put into just trying to keep you around…I wish that you would prove to me or tell me at least that you will always be there…like a true friend…that would be the greatest thing you could ever do for me…. Why is it the hardest when you love someone? For some reason, whenever you are feeling so wonderful about someone, you can’t be honest. Whether or not you’re afraid of rejection or too embarrassed to be truthful with your feelings. Why does it seem that when you like or love someone, you have to be ashamed? And how is it that whenever someone finds out you like them, they get weird? Shouldn’t it be a compliment? Shouldn’t they be flattered that someone cares about them that much? And when you see them for the 1st time and they know, why is it an awkward moment? Or say they don’t know you like them, or you know they know and they know you like them but you’ve never completely said it? Why does that make it harder to be their friend? Or when you know that another girl is in the same position as you, she likes him but for some reason they are such better friends and hang out all the time? What happens when you are so in love with someone that you can’t help but think about them? And it hurts more than anything in the world that they don’t even think about you at all that way. It’s too frustrating when you know that there is literally no chance ever and it makes your heart hurt every single time you see them? Or if they’re in the same situation as you and you listen to them constantly about their problems, when you’re having your own, God forbid they’re ever discussed. And if you’re ever alone, why does it have to be weird? Why is it that whenever we talk, its about other people…it seems that’s all we have in common. Why is it that you try so hard to be his friend…it’s just so damn hard? And you know you are putting in so much more effort than him and it sucks because he doesn’t even care. And if it’s ever discussed, nothing gets accomplished at all. In one ear and out the other. All you want to do is yell their name all the time and you know you can’t because of what might happen. It’s really a sad world when you’re feelings for someone has to be hidden because you’re afraid of what someone else will say. What does it even matter? And why do I always hear these stories of people dating because they like each other’s personalities and not looks? Why can’t that ever happen to me? Why does the person I am so in love with feel these great feelings for this other girl? And he claims that it’s not her looks…. then what have I been doing for the past year? No one realizes how hard it is to try to look at someone you love as a friend. It’s worse that way and he knows exactly what I mean because he feels the same way about someone else. why is it that it is so hard for you to be my friend? I have never had any problems with anyone else loving me as a person…it must be you. It has to be. But why? Why do I have to be the person who chooses the person with no real emotion as a love interest? I must have no luck. But it’s not like I can help it. Why doesn’t he care? Why can’t he care as much as I do or at least know how much I care? I really wish just one day it would dawn on him. Why can’t life be like the movies? The dorky girl gets the man of her dreams…movies are so fake. Life doesn’t happen like that. Not even close. In real life, hearts are b r o k e n and can never be fixed.

Why does this hurt so much? Why can't I get this kid out of my head. He shouldn't mean anything to me...But he does... I shouldnt want to be with him but I do... I shouldnt think about him all the time...But I do... I shouldnt have let him use me...But I did... Why doesn't he feel the same way, why doesnt he long for me Like I long for him... Its fucked up...But still I pretend to go on, as if nothing is wrong, with that same old happy smile on my face like I couldnt give a damn....But I do... If I gave you pretty enough words, could you paint a picture of us that works... ========================================================================================== You met him standing in front of traffic - or, to your dismay, the lack thereof - at three a.m. It was pouring and your world was grey. His eyes were made of stars, and he said, "How can you be so sad when the world is so beautiful?" You looked up at him with your heart pouring through your eyes, and you answered, "Where is it that you can find beauty in a place like this?" And he looked at the sky, and he looked in your eyes, and he said, "Beauty is relative. There is beauty in pain, and in love, and in sadness, and in death. There is beauty in you, and there is beauty in right now. I like to think that every moment is a work of art. It just takes a little bit of searching to separate the mess and find the beauty in it all."

so play it off and pretend you never know what you got yourself into i'll play it off and pretend i never meant a word i said now i'm starting to realize that getting lost in your eyes was the worst move, you win and i lose long time no update, again. i dunno why really. nothing new to say nothing new to do. same shit different day you know how it goes --------------------------- my view on relationships honestly- waste of time. all it gets you is a torn heart and a lack of self confidence. screw it. screw it all im just a little ray of sunshine tonight Ever had that feeling of being very alone i kissed you: on the lips in a swimming pool in a car at a park in a stairway in a bathroom on a couch in a treehouse in water on a trampoline in a chair by a computer listening to music watching a movie at the movie theater in a parking lot outside of your house at a friends house under blankets on a track at a restaurant after a funeral while i was crying in a closet at a skatepark at the mall at the movies at a dance on a deck late at night laying in your arms on a swing in a hammock on the cheek. in my room. on a holiday. in the rain. and it was all for nothing What hurts most is you don't know I'm hurting

An old friend of mine told me that she was concerned for me. Isnt it funny how the people who leave your life and don't talk to you for a year come back just to say they think you have a problem. I find this funny because she hasn't thought twice to call me or contact me this whole year. Then suddenly.. she calls to tell me I have a drinking problem... "Jen you are an alcoholic." Please , that's the least of my problems. Life at the moment just calls for some drinks every now and then.. especially now. I love to forget. Then she tells me I have a problem of using sex and alcohol as means to try and forget all my "problems" Fuck you up there controlling my fate, making sure I'll never get anything I want to love. Only drinks that pour and those to give out. There are only so many words I can write in the dark, to contimplate in these intoxicated times, when I know tomorrow I won't be able to read these lines... Open mind and heart and enter you- what was I thinking falling for you? I fell hard, now it just hurts and the scraped knee begins to bleed As he said....."If u like him then tell him...Do you wanna be a sex object at his disposal, ready to fuck at the click of his fingers...But you ask yourself, do you only like him cause of sex?..." ♥=======================================================================================================================================♥ I love to see beauty in things in life I believe the world will never revolve around one person I¡¯m that person you mum told you to stay away from as a kid I fall in love way to easy I want you to figure me out People close to my heart will always stay that way The world distracts me too easily I say, I hate you often, but I never mean it. if the world ended and i was there to see it i would be the one saying 'its about time' I have the best dreams but I always have to wake up Kisses in the rain are my favourite Taking photos from the heart not just because I can I believe you can never run away from yourself I ignore the world a lot I¡¯m gullible and it always is used to hurt me I regret all those times I thought I was in Love Every time I smile my heart gets a little lighter

Ohh guess whose birthday it is today. Yes thats right! Its my lesbian luver Taryns birthday, so you should all pop along to her little diary feelyoufalling and leave her some loving coz she is the most beautifulest girl in the whole world! And she is mine! Mwaaahhzzz ===================================================================================================================================== _|..____________________, , _ / `---_____________________|] ---------- this lust 2 my brain /_==o _________________| ----------- almost feels like a gun ), ---.(_(__) / // (..) ), ----" //___// /`-----' /`-----' /`-----' If my words wouldn't slur I'd kindly explain the tears streaming down my face when you said you wouldn't talk to me again... for no reason... but your own selfish ones. So now I have to be drunk to explain anything to myself, to explain why the person who said they'd always love me and be my friend would leave me in the darkest period of my life. Where exactly did you misplace your heart? But tonight it’s ok because I can’t think straight in a drunken haze. “I love you, I hate you. All I know is I don’t know nothing and nothings going to break my heart, break down to a thousand pieces.” You just wouldn’t believe the words she wrote the ones that went something along the lines of my own self defeat. Sometimes you need to hear the truth, but the truth is harsh and can bite so hard it hurts. I’m hurting so bad and the alcohol is making me sick to the point I don’t think I could take much more of it.’ I just can’t tell anymore if its your words or the vodka making my stomach churn. I hope to god it’s this drink and those words were blurred and I just heard them wrong. I almost had myself beleiving I could get over it all I was so close.... ======================================================================================================================================= ♥HAPPY BIRTHDAY ♥

Only updating so a certain person deathdragon will stop complaining about me never updating, even though I do it like once a week..... ========================================================================================== I’ll just let this go and let my tongue out for a night to release everything that has been caught on it’s tip. And to begin we'd have to go back to a guy that meant the world, that held the rope above my head and slowed, picked away teasingly with his scissors. So sweet to the eye but always hiding behind this new disguise, coming back each time with new apology lines. And what fun is anything without a game? The one where you take the girl and make her think she’s all and everything you’d ever want. Then least expectingly take her heart and proceed to cut pieces down in size. You could start with names and call her everything in the book, then move along to giving other girls the look until you’re left with the prize, there’s no more heart to cut down in size. And he was the only one who knew how to make me feel like this, like I just swallowed my own fist. Like the whole world just ended and exploded in the pits of my stomach until I couldn’t move anymore but to turn my head on my pillow and pull the covers over my head. With my heart in my hand I’m afraid I might fall and crush it all. And what’s left but a broken girl with nothing left to feel but the burning gaps he blew out of me. But I can fight back, at least I’ve thought to think that thought a thousand times before. So this time I think I might believe myself, put this past on my shelf and forget about all the things he used to say to make those gray days seem all the brighter.. but don’t think about that, just about this. I never learn from my mistakes, one guy is all it takes. “booom boom” and aside from my heart, he just exercises his fingers on the trigger. “holy shit, I’m dead again.” So come monday I try to move on... come next week we’ll see where tuesday goes... and behind the facts, is that my game is back. So I fall again for a boy, trying once more to take this whirl...always coming back to thoughts of.... love- haha! It’s a bullet that blows you away in more ways than one ======= edit ======= I miss my taryn =( Yes she is mine and I own her. *goes nd cries*

Boo... Nothin to say, life is incredibly interesting....Not...I need a boy. Im lonely...I need a msg from that boy more than anything, just so I know he is thinking of me like I sit here day after day thinking about him waiting to see his name on the screen of my phone....Somethin Im starting to think won't happen. Im probably right thinking that though. It was probably just one of those, I give him what he wants and then thats the end of it as far he is concerned. I dont want that though. I want him. Why's that so difficult to explain...I don't want to have to tell him, because I know Im only going to be let down...But still.....It would just be nice for a change for something to go the way i want it to...... As for Sim he can go get fucked....Taryn if your reading dis, when you come back I'll explain to you what my email was about. Long story, him and his pms got to much for me to handle. Hes a prick....... Anyways thats all....Yeah that was boring wasnt it...Just thought I should update, coz unlike someone who knows exactly who they are Im not slack. Yes hello Robbie....................... {{{{{Edit}}}} Aight, Taryn darl this is for your benefit in case you happen to appear during the week and I wont be here much coz I gota work....But haha Im not angry with Sim anymore, haha I was talking to Daryl last night and told him about him and he actually remembered who the boy who, Im like woooo you actually listen to me anyways he sent him a msg callin him a list of names, added on that he had a small dick and is a shit root (I told him to put that there) so Sim rang him and Daryl picked up and I heard him say hello (sim) and then Daryl hang up on him (like he did to me the other night haha) anyway then he sent him a abusive msg again tellin him if he rang him again he'd go get ppl to bash him or somthin. I dunno. I .....Anyways thats it ======================================================================================================================================= Im thinking about writing 300 letters... and sending them to strangers... They wont be to the strangers.. they will be to people I know.. They will be glued on the outside of the envolope so that the mail guy and whoever the recipient lives with will read it Letters about a moment in time.. our paths crossing... a beautiful boy that passes on the street.. or an old woman feeding the pigeons. Letters to old friends.. "Remember that time..." Letters to lovers... letters about fucking or falling in love for real... or love that can never work. Letters to people hurting... letters that are offers of help... fan letters. Letters to family (the hardest)... letters to the people who make my day better in a hundred small ways every time I see them... Letters to people who amaze me.. Letters to people whom I dislike. Letters to those whom I have neglected. Letters to those whom I have forgotten.. or simply erased.. Letters to anyone who I have ever withheald a conversation... Ultimately I want to be able to write a love letter to anyone, a stranger on the street, or someone that I have nothing but scorn for. I wanted to be able to pull out and vocalize the small thread connecting me to them, them to me, the something in them that I found beautiful or real and the something between us that existed beneath everything, acknowledged or unacknowledged, forgotten gestures and moments, strange and rare affinities. In the same way that is training your eye to take in and process the world around you, to stop and notice things, to learn how to really see , I wanted to train my heart to really feel. there was always that crack in the sidewalk, you just never noticed before the way that the lines trace like lightning bolts, the coldness of the light grey concrete, and the blackness of the crevices, the perfect intricacies of it all. There are always connections between people, things to admire in people, trust that goes unnoticed, small kindnesses, shared silences. There is always so much to see, and there is always so much to feel. There is so much that we do not talk about.. so much that we have trouble beleiving in.... ♥--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Ahh I felt like writing ♥One last thing...Im infatuated....Im not in love with him, but he is everything in my eyes...♥

Well, I decided it was time for something new...I dunno what to say though....Nothing has really happened...I managaed to lose 2 people last night (woo go me) I didnt even try to lose them haha, Oh I am talented... I want him Not because I like him, but because i like being with him, coz he makes me feel wanted and needed...I just want real love, ridiculous, inconvenient, consuming, cant live without each other love ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ I see a sense of wonder deep inside your eyes As we're sparkling and twirling in the twilight And after three long years, I think that we both need this So we seal the deal in the parking lot with a kiss And in case you And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as stars chase you away I'd collapse to the grass, with your notes ringing in my head Let the rain fill my mouth, and in a couple hours I'll be dead But all the while my lips are whistling our tune But the beauty lies in how you will revive me soon And in case you, and in case you And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away And in case you were wondering, you are like a sunset to me You're all kinds of beautiful as you end my day and you sweetly retire as the stars chase you away.. ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Well Im on hols now, no school for 3 weeks (thank god) i'd die if there was anymore...So I babysat this avo...that tired me lol...I duno how a 18 mth old can be so unergetic and make so much mess....But anyways...Leave me lots of luvin, coz I dont seem to be gettin as much lately... ********"and i said "i've gotta be honest, i've been waiting for you all my life." for so long i thought i was asylum bound, but just seeing you makes me think twice. and being with you here makes me sane, i fear i'll go crazy if you leave my side. you've got wits..you've got looks, you've got passion but are you brave enough to leave with me tonight."************ =======================================================================================================================================♥ To the nice girls. To the nice girls who are overlooked, who become friends and nothing more, who spend hours fixating upon their looks and their personalities and their actions because it must be that they are doing something wrong. This is for the girls who don't give it up on the first date, who don't want to play mind games, who provide a comforting hug and a supportive audience for a story they've heard a thousand times.. This is homage to the girls who are comfortable in skirts and sweats and combat boots, who care more than they should for guys who don't deserve their attention. This is for the girls who have been there from the beginning. This is to honor those girls who know that guys are just as scared as they are, who know that they deserve better, who are seeking to find it. This is for the girls who have left sad song lyrics in their away messages, who have tried to make someone understand through a subliminally appealing profile, who have time and time again dropped their male friend hint after hint after hint only to watch him chase after the first girl in a skirt. This is for the girls who have been told that they're too good or too smart or too pretty, who have been given compliments as a way of breaking off a relationship, who have ever been told they are only wanted as a friend. This one's for the girls who you can take home to mom, but won't because it's easier to sleep with a whore than foster a relationship; this is for the girls who have been led on by words and kisses and touches, all of which were either only true for the moment, or never real to begin with. This is for the girls who have allowed a guy into their head and heart and bed, only to discover that he's just not ready, he's just not over her, he's just not looking to be tied down; this is for the girls who believe the excuses because it's easier to believe that it's not that they don't want you, it's that they don't want anyone. This is for the girls who have had their hearts broken and their hopes dashed by someone too cavalier to have cared in the first place; this is for the nights spent dissecting every word and syllable and inflection in his speech. I honor you for the night his dog died or his grandmother died or his little brother crashed his car and you held him, thinking that if you only comforted him just right, or said the right words, or rubbed his back in the right way then perhaps he'd realize what it was that he already had. This is for the night you realized that it would never happen, and the sunrise you saw the next morning after falling to sleep. This is for the "I really like you, so let's still be friends" comment after you read more into a situation than he ever intended; this is for never realizing that when you choose friends, you seldom choose those which make you cry yourself to sleep. This is for the hugs you've received from your female friends, for the nights they've reassured you that you are beautiful and intelligent and amazing and loyal and truly worthy of a great guy; this is for the despair you all felt as you sat in the aftermath of your tears, knowing that that night the only companionship you'd have was with a pillow and your teddy bear. This is for the girls who have been used and abused, who have endured what he was giving because at least he was giving something; this is for the stupidity of the nights we've believed that something was better than nothing, though his something was nothing we'd have ever wanted. This is for the girls who have been satisfied with too little and who have learned never to expect anything more: for the girls who don't think that they deserve more, because they've been conditioned for so long to accept the scraps thrown to them by guys ♥ ======================================================================================================================================= ♥The reason it hurts so much to seperate is because our souls are seperated. Maybe that always have been and always will be. Maybe we've lived a thousand lives before this one and in each of them we've found each other♥ **********it was your hello that kept me hanging on every word. and your goodbye that keeps me listening for you voice around each corner."***********

Well, I felt it was time for some updation, not that much has happened coz well...I haven't been anywhere all week, besides work and skool today and for the odd few hours here and there all week...Yeah, I know I've heard it all day "errhh Jen where have u been for the past 2 weeks ya fuckin bludger" pfft aint my fault, as if Im goin ta go to school if I don't have to. HAH NO... So my week was relatively undramatic until today, first full day of school for two weeks, couldnt expect it go without drama could we noo....Basically there is this girl, whom me and a few others are annoyed with and I tried explaining to her in simple terms with what the problem was today but she just denies it or contradicts herself or whatever so I give up, its like banging my head up against a brick wall with her, actually i think doing that would be easier....She says she doesnt understand what the problem is, yet I sit down and explain it to her and she denies it, so you tell me? I don't want to bitch about her, or be angry or upset by her because she is supposed to be one of my best friends....But what do you do? Im not angry or upset I feel more betrayed than anything else, and confused as to why she doesnt understand what she's done. Fair enough it hasn't been intentional but the point is it happened and what I said today we all felt had to be said....But she doesnt understand and it is so so frustrating....Like I said, maybe from where she is, she might not see the problem but if she was standing looking at it from everyone else's perspective maybe then she might understand...Who would know, it seems at the moment, like it is all give give give take take take and I'm the one doing the giving and she's doing the taking only when she wants or needs it and if not, she doesn't want anything to do with me...oh sorry thats because apparently I have been very "emotional and temperamental" towards her lately. How the fuck I can be like that when she doesnt even hardly talk to me anymore I dont know. How the fuck I can be tempermental towards her I don't know considering I didnt even know what the fuck the word meant til I asked someone today I dont know....I don't know... *bangs head against wall* --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- <>What is your favorite.. Gum: Meh extra I guess Restaurant: Meh Drink: Alcohol Season: Summer Type of weather: Rain Emotion: Bliss Thing to do on a early release day: meh Late-night activity: *winks* Sport: To watch? Dunno, To play? Soccer City: Well since Ive only ever been to 2, Id go for Melbourne since thats the only place Iv been besides Bris Store: Millions When was the last time you... Cried: yesterday Played a sport: last friday i kicked a football to someone, does that count? Laughed: Yesterday Hugged someone: ummmm..... Friday Kissed someone: 3 weeks ago =( Felt depressed: Yesterday (Yes hello as you can tell I didnt have the best day yesterday) Felt elated: whats that mean? Felt overworked: Whenever I work Faked sick: Meh, don't have to do that, I just don't go ta skool if I don't want Lied: Dunno What was the last... Word you said: Meh Thing you ate: Bread Song you listened to: Buried a Lie-Senses Fail Thing you drank: Water Place you went to: Simons Movie you saw: Umm, I cant even think of the name of it....It was gayness Movie you rented: Dunoo Concert you attended: ahh no ideaa Who was the last person you... Hugged: whoever I hugged last on sunday Cried over: many things yesterday Kissed: david... Danced with: all the random ppl I danced with at the formal Shared a secret with: Josh Had a sleepover with: God, nooo idea Called: uh..... daryl Went to a movie with: louis Were angry with: meh Couldn't take your eyes off of: hmm david Obsessed over: *see above* Have you ever.. Danced in the rain: hell yes kissed someone: Yes Done drugs: yes Drank alcohol: Yes Slept around: Depends what the definition of that is...Not really... Partied 'til the sun came up: yes Had a movie marathon: Yes Gone too far on a dare: Yes Spun until you were immensely dizzy: Yes Taken a survey quite like this before: yup THE SEX (3 parts); Are you a virgin?: No FOR THE VIRGINS; Do you want to have sex before you get married?: ..... Are you waiting for a special person or would you doit w/ a bf/gf who asked: .... Where do you think you'll find your 'special someone' or have you already?: ... Would you try have sex with a member of the same sex?: ..... Would make sure that you both got tested for any STD's first?: ...... Are you happy being a virgin, or do you wish you weren't?: ........ FOR THE NON-VIRGINS; At what age did you lose your virginity?: 14ish To whom did you lose it to?: .... When was the last time you had sex?: 3 weeks ago, has been toooo looooonggg How many times have you had it?: *coughs* Have you ever had sex with a member of the same sex?: no Do you want to?: Not particuarly Where did you lose your virginity?: the guys house Where was the most uncomfortable place you've had sex?: Hah the last place it happened...Wasnt uncomfortable...Just wasnt the nicest place Do you do anything else while having sex (yeah, odd question)?: Uh? No? Do you like morning sex?: Sure When is the best time to have it?: Sex is sex, morning or night....Its still the same Where is the best place?: Lots of places... What is the best/worst thing about it?: Hmm...Duno FOR BOTH; What sex are you?: Female Sexual preference?: Guys Do you give/recieve oral sex?: If he wants ^ Would you if you had the chance?: yeah Are your friends virgins?: some-half nd half Would you/do you always get tested for STDs?: I dont.. Would you/do you always use protection?: yeah, dont wana have babies THE BOOZE; Do you drink alot?: fair amount Do you get drunk alot?: Depends Have you ever driven while drunk, or been in the car with someone drunk?: yeps What is your favorite drink?: meh Are you over 21?: No How old are you?: 16 Have your parents ever caught you drinking?: yeah, but they got no problem Have you ever drank because of peer pressure?: nah Ever been totally smashed, you forgot who you were?: lol yes Have you ever forced one of you friends to drink?: i didnt force i just...encouraged Have you ever had a really bad hang over?: yes! Do you get hang overs a lot after drinking?: not really Why do you drink?: Because I can Who is your favorite person to drink with?: friends If you drink by yourself, why?: i was bored? JUST SOME RANDOM INFORMATION; If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?: right now I would change the fact that I'm sitting here and not with a certain someone Did you do any of the things mentioned above in spite of someone?: Obviously Are you happy with your life?: I have good and bad days.... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ ♥ Its only you beautiful...or I don't want anyone♥ Hmm...Theres this guy, who I would love to talk about but I'm not quite sure what to say about him...I'm not sure where I stand with him...Its confusing...Im waiting for him to msg me back....Yeah....only 9 hours later and Im still waiting, hey got nothing better to do...We hooked twice, want to again...What would you call that 'hook up buddies'? *sighs* why must something as simple as hooking up with a hot boy become so confusing.... Anyways...Taste of Chaos tickets tomorrow...I keep putting that in there, in the hope to remind me that I must get them tomorrow...Anyways...yeah thats it Theres nowhere to hide:They stole the love from our lives to put the sex on the radio ---------------------------------------------------------------------------- I wish he was here, Im dying to find him next to me tonight. He makes me nervous, and confident and makes me contradict everything about myself....He make me want to be with him, so Im not alone...I dont want to be alone...Not tonight....Just not tonight I think once in a while, everybody gets to the point where they feel like they are about to break at the smallest thing...I think right now is that moment again for me....Either that, or Ive got bipolar....

Well well chickuns, time for a new entry I thought...I think that my week was ok, I can't really remember it, it was all a bit of a blur... sexy is you pushing me up against your car in the pouring rain; and kissing me with no intentions of ((ever )) stopping. Monday I think was quite shit, I had just had a really bad day and I'd had enough so I went and visited Simon that afternoon and had my whinge and breakdown and he made me feel better and I walked out of there smiling (as per always). I don't know what I'd do without that boy... Tuesday Was quite a long day, my Grandmas funeral and all...It was alright...I made it to the end without crying and then I let a few tears go, then I went out to the cemetry and that was sad, so I cried at that and then went to the wake where I babysat....Yay...And then that night went out to dinner with all the long lost rellies...Who I discovered I actually liked....And who like me...That afternoon, I was pretty messed up....I really needed to see Simon, but yeah he wasnt home which sort of made me worse, I don't know why. I need to get out of the habit before I get into it of depending on someone so much coz its not good... ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ ♥ do you ever just get that feeling where you don't want to talk to anybody? you dont want to smile, and you don't want to fake being happy. but at the same time, you don't know exactly what is wrong either. there isn't a way to explain it to someone who doesn't already understand. if you could want anything in the world it would be to be alone. people have stopped being comforting.. and being alone never was. at least when you're alone no one constantly asks you what is wrong and there isn't anyone who wont take "i don't know" for an answer. you feel the way you do just BECAUSE. you hope the feeling will pass soon and that you will be able to be yourself again, but until then all you can do is wait.. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ♥ The rest of the week went by, was a bit of a blur...I havent got to go to school much the next few weeks coz of exams which is good... I need a new job.... I need a certain boy... I need to get my Taste of Chaos tickets -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ♥ i want a boy A nice and bad boy. A boy who has shaggy hair and lets me play with it. He'll tell me we're like Corey and Topanga. He'll give me his favorite sweatshirt. He'll call me at 3am and ask me what i'm doing. He'll tell me he couldn't fall asleep because he was thinking about me, and he needed to hear my voice. He'll text me every morning before school saying "Have a great day babe I love you!". And he always whispers something sweet in my ear. He'll take me to a concert to see his favorite band. And he wont get embarrassed to tell me he loves me in front of his friends. He'll always make me feel better because he knows the perfect things to say to me. All of his friends will know we're in love because he'll talk about me to them. He'll stay up with me all night when im sick. We always end up laughing about silly fights. Even if we're a million years old, butterflies will still go crazy inside of me ... Everytime he kisses me. ... He'll introduce me to his friends as the coolest girl he's ever met. He'll buy me jewelry and bouncy balls from vending machines. We would have contests of how far we could spit our gum, or how far we could jump off a swing. He'll take walks with me in the snow, and we'll catch *snowflakes* on our tongues He would grab my waist and kiss my neck. And we'd always take pictures in photo booths. He'll let me go places with his mom. We would play tag and not care whos watching. We'd kiss in the rain. And when I hear him speak, I'll fall in love all over again. I want a boy who can argue over stupid things with me, and than go totally soft when I got sad and apologize. I want someone who would lay with me outside under the stars. Someone who will squirt me with water guns in the house. When we kissed our hips would be pressed together. I want someone to be there no matter what. I'll be his everything. And he'll be even more to me .. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- ♥ it's the kind of crush where i just finished putting up my away message && and i'm about to walk out the door. then he signs on and suddenly whatever i was going to do .. doesn't matter .. but talking to him does x0o ---------------------------------------------------------------- ♥ Look In my Eyes I'm Jaded Now, Whatever That Means

Well, I have a pile of assignment and shit I could be doing but I have that much crap running through my head at the moment I can't concentrate. There's so much shit happening again...Its like everything will be fine and all at once everything happens....Pisses me off.... I got with this guy last week, I still havent heard from him. Maybe he just doesnt have any credit, i was hoping that might be it but I think he just wanted sum sex, he got it and doesnt intend on talking to me until the next time he wants some....It was good while it lasted, I just liked the feeling again of bein able to lie there in somones arms, its so good...I felt like nothin else mattered...I dont really have any feelings for him...Its just more of a physical attraction than anything else, it was just nice not to feel so alone...That probably sounds pathetic but I don't know how else to explain it... As for the guy that was going away, I came to the conclusion the other night that he go to hell after our conversation...I hadn't talked to him for a week and this is how it went.... Me: hey Him: Hey Me: how r u him: good, u me: alright Me: I haven't talked to u for awhile Him: Maybe I havent felt like talking to u... Me: um alright.... Him: Maybe I've more important things to do than talk to you Me: um ok *silence* Me: I never said u didnt *silence* Me: Well obviously you have more important things to do now than talk to me so I'll go *in my sarcastic voice* Him: yup good *I hung up* So that was great, just as typical as always, I actually have feelings for someone and they fuck me around and throw it back in my face. Fucking typical... The fact that before that happened I was already in a shit mood coz I got a msg from raymond that afternoon saying he found out where my necklace was, so I all excitedly rang him asking him where it was and he said "Ive found it alright" and I asked where and he said "Around skyes neck"....I swear my heart could of dropped out of my chest right there and then. I don't know whether I was more angry or upset...both I think. Because of the fact, that he blatantly denied he had it to me and to raymond and he lied about it time after time again. Also because of the fact that he knew what that fucking meant to me, he knew how much the guy I got it from meant to me and to me to even give it to him in the first place was a huge deal for me, so not to give it back annoyed me, but when i found out she had it fuck I got annoyed... I hate her so much, Shes not keeping it, I will get it back....They can threaten to kill me, bash me, show up at places wanting to, send ppl out looking for me, abuse me, do what they like but theres no way in the world she is keeping it... Leah is pissing me off but thats a whole different story...I'm just sick of her and her slutty ways.... -------------------------------------- ♥ My life reads like the classifieds Pages of whats for sale Whats on the auction block Attention bidders! Its line 45 She's got a decent voice, She's got that crooked smile Hold on, you havent heard the best yet She writes good storylines, She's got those honest eyes So take her home for just $9.95 She'll sing the songs you like, She'll keep you warm at night --------------------------------------♥ My grandmother died last night, It doesn't actually worry me all that much coz I wasnt that close to her and shes been dying for the past 6 months and shes better off that way but the atmosphere around here atm is so tense....I hate it...Life goes on...That may sound very...unsypmathetic but its true...She was old, she had cancer, she died...Simple as that...Funeral should be interesting though...Since all of dads family hate each other should make it a very interesting day...Seeing as they haven't all been in the same room as each other since the last funeral which was about 20 years ago.... Other than that everything else is alright, work is shit, school is shit, being alone is shit...Im just in a bad mood and Ive had enough of everything and everyone.......... --------------------------------------♥ baby dont you know we're all whores -------------------------------------- ♥ Another knife in my hands A stain that never comes off the sheets Clean me off I'm so dirty babe The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes I keep a book of the names and those Only goes so far 'til you bury them So deep and down we go Touched by angels, though I fall out of grace I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day Another knife in my hands A stain that never comes off the sheets Clean me off I'm so dirty babe The kind of dirty where the water never cleans off the clothes I keep a book of the names and those Only goes so far 'til you bury them So deep and down we go Touched by angels, though I fall out of grace I did it all so maybe I'd live this every day your my star If looks could kill you'd be a murderer....or maybe just a whore...

Man last night was crazy I had the most awesome night ever...Hmm where do I start... Well, I left skool at 11.30 and came home and talked to simon for awhile and went to the hairdresser, I was there for 2 hrs lol, was crazy, so like after she put 2 boxes of pins in my hair and a can of hairspray I came home and did nothing for awhile, Simon came over at 4.30 (and he was dressed already) he looked hot! to see how I was goin and then he left agen and leah helped me do muh makeup and then i got dressed and everything and as mum said...I dont scrub up to bad lol....Louis got here and we had like 394409324 million photos and then we left and haha it was like something out of the movies, we drove in and the concierge person opened the door and everything, I was like oh wow. And then we walked in and Simons mum was standing outside and she goes wow!! look at u, u look stunning. And yeah everyone said how nice I looked, I must admit I did look alright. And yup then we ate and everything and he was like u wana dance so we did that for awile and then I was like nah Im not a dancing person so we stopped and then this other chick rebecca sorta adopted me and was looking after me and stuff and we went up and for the next 3 hrs I danced the night away....My feet r killing me...Uz shuld try dancing in 10 cm heels for 3 hrs....I had the best time though...And then I went to the afterparty and got home about 3 this morning and went to bed....I must be the only chick that will go to a party in 9 degree weather, pouring rain, wearing a strapless dress lol...But u have to do these things ay. Anyway it was awesome...Ive had that many photos taken though its not funny, danced with that many people lol it was so funny though I was getn a drink and simon comes up to me and goes hey sexy and I turned around and hes got oh shit its u, I forgot u were here fuck u look beauiful...I was like :|...Neways thats about it....Fucking awesome ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ BOY: I saw her today GiRL: I saw him today -BOY: It seems like it's been forever GiRL: I wonder if he still cares -BOY: She looks better than before GiRL: I couldn't stop staring at him -BOY: I asked her how things were going GiRL: I asked him about his new girlfriend -BOY: I'd choose her over any girl I'm with GiRL: He's probably really happy right now -BOY: I couldn't look at her without starting to cry GiRL: He couldn't even look at me -BOY: I told her I miss her GiRL: He doesn't mean it BOY: I meant it GiRL: He didn't mean it -BOY: I love her GiRL: He loves his new girlfriend -BOY: I held her for the last time GiRL: He gave me a friendly hug -BOY: Then I went home and cried GiRL: Then I went home and cried -BOY: I lost her GiRL: I love him ----------------------------------- edit: Well, yesterday was interesting...Im not going into detail about that tho...Youz can fill in the blanks urself...Well...taryn can anyway haha.... Hmm anyways theres this guy I kinda got something for...I duno hes leaving in few weeks/months/who would do. I duno what it is I have for him though...His friend has been messin with me tho, tellin me he loves me and shit which I dont beleive...I duno...I kinda just wana block him out and forget about him but at the same time hes just one of those people that u kno u are sposed to keep talking to no matter what coz their somethin speshul...Hmm...what to do....

Jen is back...I missed dis place ay (hey robbie) neways how r uz all? Thanx chlo for takin care of dis!!. I would type heaps more but the formal im goin to is tmoro night and I have fake nails on lol so its extremely hard to type....Like one a sec...Should be a good night...Formal and then party...Yayness....Neways i wana see lotsa comments k. Mwahz

Aight..this isn't Jennif. It's her bestest friend (via MSN anyways) Chloe. (yes Robbie, the one who wants to suck ur dick. hahaha..) She txt me last night telling me to get my ass online and tell Robbie that her computer has died (something about viruses?) but I thought I'd publically make a special entry to tell all her friends that :D woo go me. I dunno what exactly happened but it's at the computer fixing shop and so yes. Jennif has GONE! So yes. Thats my story :)

LOVE isn't about finding the PERFECT person, but learning how too see an IMPERFECT person perfectly ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------♥ Well, Im only writin dis coz taryn (my lesbian luva :p) told me to, I got nothin to say haha....Went out last night again, head hurts now but hey, all fun and games ay? Was good fun. Neways...I will find sum stuff to pretty this up since I dont have anythin of great interest to talk about (robbie, how do u ramble on about pointless shit for as long as u do and make it as interesting as it sounds??) ------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------♥ RULES: Write a statement intended for 15 different people. never tell which one is for who. 1. you mean so much too me. i could never imagine my life without you. you are so perfect in every way. it's so amazing, how you have changed my life. so much for the good and i feel like such a better person, because of you. im sorry that we fight at times, but that's how things are. i know that if you were anyone else, i wouldn't be able too work things out but you are different. i could never let a fight just drift away with us and when we talk about the fights it makes alot of things better. our love wouldn't be true if we couldn't talk about everything but we can. i trust you with everything that i've got and you make me so happy, too me i am the luckiest girl ever. 2. Things havent been the same between us for ages, uve drifted away from me, but Im always goin to be here ok...I love u so much 3. all i have too say is one word douchebabe hah 4. I owe you my life, u mean so so much to me and I wish I could give u back all that u have ever given me. If it wasnt for u, I wouldnt even be able to begin to imagine where I would be know. U are the most amazing strongest person I know and u are so so awesum, I cant explain to how much u mean to me. U have given me so much hope and faith and courage and strength to go on when I thought that I couldnt anymore...Those nights when I had no one to turn to and u would spend all night on the phone to me even though all I would do is cry, that meant so much to me and im sorry for putting u thru that....and scaring u when I was messed up....U are amazing and I know things are ahrd for u somtimes but u will get thru them and I will always always be here for u whenever u need me. I love u 5. i miss you so much, i miss our old times, i miss being good friends. i wish u would have never moved, but atleast we do stay in touch. I couldnt all those years ago imagine my life without u, because i depeneded on u so much and I thought that once U left my life was over, it was for awile, but I learnt to live...I learnt to live without u...it was hell hard but I knew I had to do it for u. I think now its a good thing u left because I was able to stand on my own two feet again and get some independence back, I miss u so much though. Ill always have a special place in my heart for u. 6. your a prick half of the time, you always start fights with me, your the cause of so much of my stress, we used too be good friends, and tell each other everything, we never used too fight like we do this year, i don't know what is happening, No matter how much we hurt each other I will always be here for u....Im sorry for hurting u and lying to u all those times I have, and Im sorry for carrying on that stupid dream in my head that we would end up together some day....Was just a stupid childhood dream....Im beginning to come to terms with the fact that theres nothing there anymore though....That 'somthing' we had, has disepaered...Im sorry for everything... 7. Im glad we became friends and over these past 2 years we have been through so much and so many memories, Im sorry if Ive ever hurt u, but we have always come thru it havent we... i love you darling 8. i miss the old times, when we were young and all we cared about was fun, we always played barbies and made them do the nasty just for the hell of it because it was just something that made us laugh. i miss you dearly, i wish everything was back too normal and i wish we were always together like old times 9. Well, ur the one that has given me hope to move on after him....I want u to be the one that I move on with but I dont see that happened...Ur so amazing, u can have me laughing over the silliest things for hours on end for no reason at all...Only a really special person would be able to do that....Ur rad babe 10. you are the craziest out of all of my friends. you always make me laugh. school wouldn't be the same without you. thanks for always being there for me, whenever i needed you 11. you are such a fucking liar..U failed me as a friend, theres no other way that I could say it. i did nothing to u, I gave up 10 years of my life for u, everything I did, I did it for u, and what for, to be stabbed in the back, to have it all thrown in my face, to have u be a slut and sleep with him and then act innocent. To have u tell me I would be better of dead and threaten to kill me. U can only blame urself for investing ur whole life in me bcoz u knew very well that once I was gone, once i had given u everything I had and was over it and couldnt forgive u or take it anymore that u would be left alone to pick up the pieces.Well I am not going to live my life in fear of u. I am better than u, i am so much better than u will ever be...I hate u 12. Well u piss me off alot somtimes, like when Ill be all serious and u laugh at me, or when u laugh at me for other reason which u shuldnt be laughing, but underneath that like i said I might be just some random chick to u but I really do care about u alot and Im really worried about u at the moment. If u were here with me, things would be alright, we could have so much fun together and things would be alrite but ur not. Last nite, I was so worried i just wanted to hold u and tell u that everything was going to be ok, but that was a bit hard. it will be ok though u just have to stay with it all and not get in any more trouble coz if u keep doin that me or anyoen else wont be able to help u. I knew u were somthin speshul when we first started talking and I would stay up all night just to talk to and before that I spent 2 months trying to find u again. We found each other ay and we'll stay togetha 4eva, with me as ur punk rock princess :p like I was all those months ago....Luv ya gorgeous 13. i remember on new years eve 2003 we had the greatest time. that was such a great night, but anymore i don't feel the same. we are drifting apart and our friendship just isn't the same 14. we go together like peanut-butter and jelly. we havent been friends, that long but It has become so strong.... yes i know we have our fights over the dumbest things ever hah but we always get through them together. we would never let anything destroy our friendship for good, it is just too strong too ever do that. you are like my sister and nothing will ever change that. thanks for everything and thanks for always putting up with my shit when i was pissed and i took everything out on you. im really sorry for that, but half the time i would never have anyone that i could talk too about anything and i knew that you would be there too listen. i love you. 15. we aren't the best of friends, but i always have good laughs with you. well even though we aren't the best of friends i hope you do know i would never ever do anything too hurt you. i could tell you anything about me and i know you wouldn't tell a single soul if i asked you not too and i hope that you can trust me. you are a great girl and an amazing person. anybody who ever hurt you, needs there ass beat so give me there names so i can go beat some ass. -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------♥ UNIQUE 1. Nervous Habits? bitting my nails 2. Are you double jointed? no 3. Can you roll your tongue? no 4. Can you raise one eyebrow at a time? yes 5. Can you cross your eyes? no 6. Tattoos? not yet 7. Piercings and where? ears 8. Do you make your bed daily? no CLOTHES 10. Which shoe goes on first? um, as if I have ever taken any notice 11. Speaking of shoes, have you ever thrown one at anyone? hah yes when somone fuckin made me run after him on camp and climbed up a tree and stuck it up there, When i got him i hurt him with it... 12. On the average, how much money do you carry in your purse/wallet? $50 13. What jewelry do you wear 24/7? my necklace and braclets and rings 14. Favorite piece of clothing? my green top i bought yesterday FOOD 15. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? twirl 16. Have you ever eaten Spam? yuck, no 17. Favorite ice cream flavor? cookies and cream 18. How many cereals in your cabinet? about 2 or 3 19. What's your favorite beverage? um alcohol? 20. What's your favorite restaurant? Meh 21. Do you cook? yes GROOMING 22. How often do you brush your teeth? twice a day 23. Hair drying method? hair dryer? 24. Have you ever colored/highlighted your hair? yes MANNERS 25. Do you swear? yes 26. Do you ever spit? no WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE 27. Animal? dog 28. Food? duno 29. Month? december 30. Day? saturday 31. Cartoon? duno 32. Shoe Brand? etnies or kustom 33. Subject in school? lunch 34. Color? neon pink 35. Sport? soccer 36. Tv show? Summerland 37. Thing to do in the spring? going on walks 38. Thing to do in the summer? swim 39. Thing to do in the fall? meh 40. Things to do in the winter? sleep IN AND AROUND 41. The CD player? random songs 42. Person you talk most on the phone with? sim 43. Ever taken a cab? yeha...many times 44. Do you regularly check yourself out in store windows and mirrors? hah yes, every avo I do my hair as i walk past in the shop window...then i realised the other afternoon, even though I cant actually see in there, they can see out and see me doin that...haha shame 45. What color is your bedroom? purple nd pink 46. Do you use an alarm clock? yes 47. Window seat or aisle? who cares LALA LAND 48. What's your sleeping position? on the left side 49. Even in hot weather do you use a blanket? no 50. Do you snore? no 51. Do you sleepwalk? no 52. Do you talk in your sleep? hah, sometimes 53. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no 54. How about with the light on? no 55. Do you fall asleep with the TV or radio on? radio -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------♥ "do you remember that night, that night when all of a sudden out of the blue you and i became absolutely c r a z y about each other?" -----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------♥ Quotes love is when you miss him even before he leaves, when you could listen to him talk all night & never get tired of hearing his voice, when the sound of his name sends chills down your spine, & you see his smile the second you close your eyes. i just want that one boy who will make everything seem right when he asks "whats wrong?" and i say "its a long story" he'll be like, baby i've got all night. do you remember those nights when, you stayed up just too talk too me on the phone until we both fell asleep? well i just want you too know i'm glad you never hung up. sometimes you meet someone & before you know their name, before you know where they are from. you know that sometime in the future this person is going to mean something to you. nobody is p e r f e c t. some people are just perfect for each other. if ever there is tomorrow when we're not together, there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe; stronger than you seem; & smarter than you think, but the most important thing is even if we`re apart i`ll always be with you. LOVE is seeing him how no one else does. LOVE is when you know he's not perfect, but you see him perfectly. LOVE is thinking about him day and night through the day and in your dreams. LOVE is when he means the world and even more to you. LOVE is when no one else understands how you feel. LOVE is the best feeling you can feel, that touches your heart in ways words cannot explain. you know it's love when the tiny details about another person, ones that seem insignificant to most people seem incredible and magnificent to you. girl: do i ever cross your mind? boy: no. girl: do you like me? boy: not really. girl: do you want me? boy: no. girl: would you cry if i left? boy: no. girl: would you live for me? boy: no. girl: would you do anything for me? boy: no way. girl: what would you choose, your life or me? boy: my life. the girl runs away in shock & in pain, & the boy runs after her & tells her: the reason why you would never cross my mind is because your always on my mind. the reason why i don't like you is because i love you . the reason why i don't want you is because i need you. the reason why i won't cry if you left is because i would die if you left. the reason why im not willing too do anything is because i 'd do everything for you. the reason why i choose my life is because you are my life. i want to get to a point where no matter what happens, no matter how long we go without being together, no matter how many fights we get into that all we need is a kiss & suddenly we remember why we love each other. & i'll leave you with this last quote. something in your eyes makes me wanna loose myself in your arms. there`s something in your voice; that makes my heart beat faster & faster & im glad too know that this feeling will last the rest of my life.

Have you ever really thought about it? You've got this girl, head over heels in love with you. She'd do anything for you; she'd die for you. But for some reason, you don't want to see that. You know its there,a nd you know that you feel the same way. But you refuse to let it be, maybe your scared of the thought that this girl who you know so well- you've seen her happy, you've seen her sad - maybe this girl is perfect for you...and that really scares you, doesn't it?... -------------------------------------♥ He handed her 12 roses, 11 real and 1 fake, and said "I'll love u till the last one dies..." -------------------------------------♥ Throughout a girl's life, she'll kiss alot of guys, and I promise you, she'll forget almost half of them... She'll remember a few... But there will be that | | one | | guy...that | | one | | moment that she'll remember for the rest of her life ... You were that guy...That one kiss...That one moment... ---------------------------------------- edit What do you do when ur to scared to let go of the past coz u dont want to have a future without them, theyve always been there for u....u realise that they were right when they said that amongst everyone u kno thru everything thats happened they were the one that had always been there for u and always would be....but then something happens...u fight, make up, fight some more, lose them, realise u still love them, u just dont want to.....Coz its to late......What do you do then?? ------------------------------------------ You scored as Cute without the 'E' - Taking Back Sunday. You are "Cute without the E" by Taking Back Sunday. You have been hurt in the past and it's messed with your head quite a bit. You care about your friends more than anything in the world, and tend to have mood swings, you go from overly happy to overly depressed very quickly. You love and refuse to stop believing in the people you love - you can't let them go. Cute without the 'E' - Taking Back Sunday75%Buried a Lie - Senses Fail60%Too Far Gone - All American Rejects60%You know what they do to guys like us in prison - My Chemical Romance60%Save Me - Unwritten Law55%Helena - My Chemical Romance55%Feeling This - Blink 18250%Minority - Green Day50%Home - Three Days Grace50%Work - Jimmy Eat World50%The Middle - Jimmy Eat World45%You're So Last Summer - Taking Back Sunday45%Burnout - Green Day35%What emo/rock song are you?created with QuizFarm.com