wow i havent written in this thing in a while...lotz has happened since the last time. im really pissed off that i can*t go see -H-I-M- on may 8 fucking mom...parents suck =( i got grounded yet again. ne way.. last wendsday was my b-day and jenns too!! wOo* 15 now bitches that means i get to drive soon haha thats gonna be so fucking awesome i wanna black mustang ya but lyke that will ever happen..maybe? i already know how to drive shhhh =) my weekend was really boring (( i was grounded)) all i did was work on my biography project thing ( im doing kurt cobain =) ) and go to desert ridge a couple times. pretty boring huh. at desert ridge i bought-H-I-M- heartagram , AFI, and Nirvana tank tops from hot topic fuck ya and a -H-I-M- (razorblade romance),Evanescence posters and jewlry. i also bought 2 cds- AFI- the art of drowning and Smile Empty Soul. Im starting to notice that my parents are getting stricter with me they think that im too into my music and all this shit its really annoying ah. i keep writting alot latley lyke a couple writtings a day i dunno im inspired i guess yet everything seems so meanless latley i dont know why i just feel empty i hope things change.. unlock the key to your tainted heart that holds millions of kept secerts and cries in the dark.-me ^first line of something im writting as we speak. gonna go peaceee :::LiNdSaY::: Morningstar-AFI I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing through the melting walls. Who will be the first to begin their fall? Or will we become one? Am I the star beneath the stairs? Am I a ghost upon the stage? Am I your anything? I saw a star beneath the stairs glowing bright before descent and in the morning there is nothing left but what's inside of me. And I don't want to die tonight; will you believe in me? And I don't want to fall into the light. Will you wish upon? Will you walk upon me? I don't want to die tonight. Will you. ...i love that song.