brett makes me happy soo happy but i miss talking to sam.. and as hard as i am trying to keep that together i feel like im not being as good of a friend as i shoudl be eunice is gone and there is nothign i can do to stop it... losing a friend sucks... but it sucks even worse to watch her go and not want to lose her... i dont wanna lose eunice not at all... i thinking about her pulls be apart... being in portillos yesterday and talke about how she always wants to go there mad me so sad... i was fighting back the tears... and brett could see me just get completely depressed thinking about it... i mean yes i have really been hurt by her.... but she has definatelly been a major upper too... and yea i like the fact that she speaks her mind and respect that soo much... sometimes i think it goes to far but oh well... and yea im not sure about this whole kyle thing... and i just want to give you my opinion, not bing a judgemental bith, but im just worried... and yea it is ur choice... and ur life... but i would never forgive myself if somthing bad happened... and i didnt even express any consern in the beginning... but oh well i dont have much of a choice cuz u have decided and u decided u want me out cuz im just a heart-less bitch... allie has found out somethings she wasnt supposed to... lets just see how that goes.. hopefully the whole school wont know by monday... please keep ur mouth shut al but i guess ill have to take the good with the bad.. the bad seems to be overpowering the good but well just have to see hopefully it isnt all down hill from here ;)