now i remember why i stayed away i need to be shealtered from the pain the thoughts and ideas u expose like frayed wires are sparking ideas of self distruction i need your detications i cant be just a freind i have to be taken care of i need you to be there and have my back i would rather not die alone ideas are flying through my mind im trying to choose which should be my posion i just wanna feel numb dead to the world i dont know if i cant handle this..myself my rage is insane you think you stand a chance against me ha good luck this knife grows bigger and bigger at my side when will this temptations end bodyly impulses will cause me to do things i dont want to do... ideas its all rushing back i cant stop it i dont know what to do i could use a cig