I shouldn't even be thinking this. But he's kept things from me in the past. And a friend did have a whole plot lined up where we'd get back to school, the boyfriend would be lonely, and he and his ex would start dating again behind my back. Now the ex is sending him winks, saying she loves everyone but "him, there's more to that than we need to know." It makes me wonder. I mean, I dunno. If I get suspicious, then that means I don't trust him. Which is really stupid, because I do. At least I think I do. I have no reason not to. I just worry. Then all this stuff with my friend. But that's nothing because she loves her guy. And she wouldn't do that to me. I'm just jealous that he gets to see her every day and all that. Plus he's getting in my little fun games that I like to be the one to do. I'm seriously being replaced. My boyfriend replaced me in yearbook. His ex has replaced me by aiding for my favorite teacher. Another friend wants to be that teacher's best friend and said he wants to get a relationship with her like I had. My boyfriend gets to do all these fun games with one of my best friends now. I was replaced in my second family by someone. Now I don't really have a place back home at all. And I'm still trying to make my place here. I feel totally alone. Like nobody at home needs me anymore so I should just stay here.