I feel worried because I keep having dreams where I've been raped. Actually, in my dreams I'm BEING raped. Normal? Probably not. It's odd because I've never had sex. Though I have done other stuff but that's not the point. I also feel content. I think I want to marry him. I confronted him about my fears that he might be in love with his ex. He laughed, reassured me, and explained all of my concerns away. Now I'm a content little child in love. Sappy and pathetic? Yes, it very much is. But I suppose that's what makes life, these sappy and pathetic moments. He wanted to be able to take away all of my pain. I told him that I didn't want him to because I will only fall more in love with him when he holds me during my tearful times. I want to marry him now but we have to wait until after undergrad college. So we have to wait until 2010. It's going to be so hard but worth it ultimately.