||sigh|| well eventually i'll have to talk to her... and if shit happens like it looks like it might, the too fucking bad. question: if your girlfriend is ignoring your 7 calls the day you make the trip home and then goes out to a social gathering the night u come back from vacation, what does that usually indicate? fuck it. if it happens, it happens. and to think i fucking missed her... aaanyway, thank you much claire, i do indeed feel better. so my parents hide invitations from me... so i got the two invitations to parties that i thot i wasnt invited to an hour and a half ago... so i guess its all good in those two respects...