heh... I just noticed that hissing has completely reversed it's connotation to me since college... but that's not why I made this... How much do digital video cameras cost on average? not nice ones, just one that does what it's intended to do... Anyway... I think I've decided that I want to get married... have a kid... have a family... I do hate kids, but I wouldn't hate my kid. As long as I did everything right and waited until I was financially secure and settled in with my wife and all that nonsense... I do want that... just... I don't want to start yet. I can't settle down yet, and I think that was a big part of why I may have started to distance myself from Claire, because if we had continued like we were going around March or April, I may have never experienced some of the things that I've already experienced in college. That's why in retrospect, I'm so ridiculously relieved that Suzy's mom didn't let us get back together. That's why even right now I'm refusing to let myself like some one on a level any deeper than their physical attractiveness (although it's proving rather difficult sometimes with one of my old friends... and that's also why thinking of her sometimes scares the crap out of me...) but anyway... I don't really know what the purpose of this is... I should probably be focusing on the final I have to take in an hour and a half... I'm too excited to get this semester over with... I've fucked it up too much, I need next semester to rectify things... Tomorrow at 7, it'll all be over...