well it has been a year... and slowly im realizing that there will be no more sleepovers, campouts, church barbeques... NOTHING... shes gone. i cant believe it... i dont want to... i've been in denial... she was [ i mean is, is, is, is! ] my best friend. Lucy was the one who understood me and we didnt even have to talk... i could sit there and it would be like we were talking. my life has changed... since the incident...and so has everyone elses. i mean, lucy and i had plans... we were going to both go to high school and rock it. we were going to date twin brothers and get married [ cheesy, but the truth ]i mean i still miss her and she will not be forgotten... but i have to move on right? i cant still only think about her... i just dont even know... everyone else has moved on... even her parents - this weekend they took down her room and put everything of hers in storage and are having a yard sale next week to sell her bed and such... they invited me to come over and look and reminsce but i just couldnt... tristyn and whitney went over then they came to my house bawling their eyes out... i just couldnt do that... esp. the way that luc went. i just cant stand it... i called her FIVE MINUTES after it happened... thats what really bugs me... but life goes on, right? i mean it seems everyone else is moving on... everyone else is continuing with their dreams and goals... since that day i havent accomplished anything... i know that LUC is looking down telling me to move on and i get over it... but i just cant... i mean i should but i cant... im crying as i write this... im sorry guys - everyone that didnt know lucy heres some background information... 1) she killed herself 2) she was... i mean is one of my best friends 3) she was 13 4) her favorite song was HOLD ON. GOOD CHARLOTTE... go figure, right? LUCY MARINA RANDOLPH - i love you with all my heart and that will never change. Lucy, you are my best friend and i dont look down on you for what you did... i just wish you told me. you are and always were my favorite. Rest in Peace LUC 11.28.1989 - 11.2.2003 i love you always. *candle light visual tonight in whitneys front yard, if you dont know where that is... then IM me... if you dont have my SN then you probably shouldnt come considering you probably didnt know lucy, but if you did... and you dont have my SN then leave me a comment and ill get back to you*