WELL I THINK IT'S 0KAY F0R ME T0 SAY THAT I'M 0VER ASHT0N C0MPLETELY
Things are just so weird now between me and him, it's not like how in normal [ex]relationships it would be akward to be around that one person .. in ours we're like fighting like a married couple about to get a divorce. At first it was all me and I was being gay to him because the truth is: I still kind of liked him and I wanted to hate him so I'd stop. But now that I'm trying to be nicer he's getting to be more mean to me than EVER! Just some things that he does and says it's just gay. I mean we're not friends like at all and I don't know .. sometimes just sometimes I kind of want to be his friend like before we ever went out and before the school year even started; like durring the summer. I don't know .. but sometimes it feels like it's too late to just be normal friends. I mean it will be three months, in five days, since we broke up. [I remeber lots of dates/times/numbers]
Don't you think that things would get back to normal by now? Whatever ..
But honestly the way I feel about the whole Ashton situation ..
When we first went out we liked eachother so much, and if you analyze it deeply sometimes you can even start to think it could have been something like love. And we were always together, and we were so close to eachother until the very end when I had to go and sqrew it up. And then after that we were still friends I guess you can say. And then as time went on we started to fight more and more But the part that I don't understand is how could two people that seemed to have liked eachother so much - end up like this? Was it all just fake, or is this all fake? Somewhere in between there someone turned into a phonie..