I dont know how much sorrier i could get... I dont know what is wrong with me... I need to stop being such a bitch... I need someone to help me overcome my anger and paranoia... I just need someone... sigh I dont mean to hurt people... especially the person that means so much to me... the person that is always there for me, making me feel better, forgiving me, caring for me, comforting me, loving me. How can you put up with me? I do not understand this. I feel like such a horrible person and i just want to start over. I wish i could just turn back time and start the fuck over with everything... and make sure im not a rotten person. I seem sweet sometimes but that only lasts for so long. Ahg... I hate thinking about all the times ive hurt the people i care about a love. I feel so bad i cant help but cry... All i need is him... I Love You...