I feel as though i wasted my day. i dont like this feeling. i know i shouldnt be complaining.. but i still wish that i would have done soemthing but sit here on the computer or on the damn couch... i was going to go somewhere with a friend or two. but then i got too lazy... ugh.. i need to stop being so lazy i also didnt want my parents mad either.. my step dad gets annoyed when he has to drop me off places.. and my mom doesnt like me haveing friends as guys.. so whatever... as for the things within spirituality... things are progressing slowly.. i just finished a book called the four agreements, author don miguel ruiz.. its a toltec wisdom book which "reveals the source of self-limiting beliefs that rob us of joy and create needless suffering." "It offers a powerful code of conduct that can rapidly transform our lives to a new experience of freedom, true happiness, and love." i didnt rewrite the stuff in my own words cause im lame. k? anyway.. its a good book and i believe that if you or someone you know are having a difficult time in life (who isnt?) you should at least consider reading it.. or recommending it.. hmm... i need to start studying tarot again also.. i havent touched my cards for a week... i feel guilty about that... hmm... oh well.... we live, we love, we die. Violet