School was pretty good. Some amount of math homework I have though. We had a nice, leasurly run today during track. Not too much. Afterwards I went over to my math teachers class to tutor some people for extra credit [though I don't need it] but ended up just grading some test corrections and talking with her. I don't know why.. But my boyfriend has been seeming distant to me again. I don't know if I'm imagining it or not. I'm pretty sure it is how I see it. He left right after practice saying "I'll see you tomorrow" which is odd, since he usually walks me home. Oh well. *shrugs* If it's over again I can handle it better than how I did before. But I have no idea what to think. And I don't want to make too big a deal out of this whole thing. I'm too young to be hurt for no reason. I'm too young to hate life so much. I wish I would have been born in Hungary as was planned. But no, I had to be born here in the spoiled country of America. I had to turn into a self-absorbed American. At least I'm aware of our countries unfairness and lies. I guess I'll just have to accept the fact that there are many things in life that piss me off/ make me sad/ bother me. But in the end I have to realize that my thoughts are the reason for these conclusions. Optimism is key. ...I really don't want to go to school tomorrow. I don't want to see his face. I don't want to see that skank. I don't want to run that run. I don't want to feel neglected. I don't want to go through with it all. -- I almost forgot! I walked into a cement ligh pole today. My knee hurts and I don't know if I'll be able to run much tomorrow. Oh welll :]