we are so close to breaking up &i just want to die. ive never been happier than i am when im with you. if i could change what i did i would. in a heartbeat. i wish someone would kill me. because im not strong enough to do it myself. i messed up. im sorry. youre too good to/for me and i know it. random statements strungout. it doesnt make sense. &neither does what im thinking. insane.