it sure has been a while. i actually forgot my password, silly me. but i'm back now. jared and i still heart each other. i work at wolf now, but i hate it so while i have time to shop around i am going to look for something for which i have a passion. well, that and school. just last week i was in the state of washington, inside which lies my favorite city in the world: seattle. (heart) visited my jackie, she is still so lovely, yet so sad... poor jackie. my parents and i are getting along now, i think that is entirely due to jared being present everytime i see them for two reasons: first, i haven't been with someone worth presenting to them or worth gaining their approval of before, and second, they won't try shit around him! ah i love him. i want so badly to return to school it hurts! i really need a car. i have to give up my hippy-ish ways and buy one... : ( like the day i had to give up my anti-cellphone beliefs and buy one. hurts my pride ok... well, since i noticed that i have spoken about my health before i might as well again: i have no clue what the hell is wrong with me. i have been getting cat scan after cat scan after sonogram after blood test after urine test and they can't find out where the chronic pain is coming from. they told me "some women just live with pain for the rest of their lives" then gave me an unlimited supply of vicodin. bleh... so i might as well have a baby or something, shit. not like i'll feel any different... aye me. i said i was going to update but all i have done is complain. oh well, no one actually reads this.