FINALLY! Summer school is over and I've just graduated high school! Yippee! Now I've just got to get into college and I'll be well on my way! Since when did they change SitDiary? Its so weird....I don't like it...

I would try and attempt to write what it was I wrote yesturday, but the moment has passed and I'm not as angry as I was....I'm just sick of everybody's lies..... But I have a question for everyone....Do I strike as the type of person who if and when I don't give you what you want, am I useless to you? It seems that way to me....

I'm sick of being sick....its the first day of spring break and I have a head and chest cold....I've already been down and out for the count with strep throat. And just as I get over that-BAM!! A double header. I was doing a search for JRock fashion and I can't find anything!!!! It frickin' sux!! All hail the mighty JRock!!! Its way cooler than American rock just because you can't understand a word a they say. **tee hee** Okay, I'm going...I'm starting to babble. So I'm going to take my nice, hot cup of orange and spice tea (which smells better than it tastes) and go back to bed! Sionara!! (bebop out)

its raining...i'm sick of the rain. I want the type of rain that's down in Arizona. Its warm and it comes down in buckets. I want it to do that up here. I'm starting to take Japanese classes, but my computer is just being stupid...somedays, I seriously hate technology. *sigh** somedays I want to sleep and never want to wake up...just sleep for all eternity in a black abyss.

so, quick update.... I had a boyfriend... dumped him yesturday... now I'm the lonely ice queen again....and I'm happy with it.... weird... one good thing though....I really like my new picture...I want to look like that.. **(nee-te eeteyo) Nothing is like before.

I feel the compulsive need to update my journal with an annoying survey or two...what do think? TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The SurveyName:bEbOPBirthday:NovemberBirthplace:ArizonaCurrent Location:UtahEye Color:sky blueHair Color:reddish blondeHeight:164 cmRight Handed or Left Handed:rightYour Heritage:mom from england, dad from USAThe Shoes You Wore Today:slippersYour Weakness:anime, manga, and anything else in those catergoriesYour Fears:spiders and rejectionYour Perfect Pizza:don't like pizza anymoreGoal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:to graduate high schoolYour Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:don't have IMThoughts First Waking Up:What time is it?Your Best Physical Feature:my eyesYour Bedtime:10-12, but its getting really early now these daysYour Most Missed Memory:my momPepsi or Coke:cokeMacDonalds or Burger King:neither, they both suck!Single or Group Dates:groupLipton Ice Tea or Nestea:neitherChocolate or Vanilla:chocolateCappuccino or Coffee:i like mochas betterDo you Smoke:neverDo you Swear:yeah *hangs head*Do you Sing:badlyDo you Shower Daily:yeahHave you Been in Love:with ppl, don't know; with anime guys, definatelyDo you want to go to College:yepDo you want to get Married:sometimesDo you belive in yourself:depends on the day and situationDo you get Motion Sickness:nopeDo you think you are Attractive:no, but ppl say otherwiseAre you a Health Freak:yeahDo you get along with your Parents:sure doDo you like Thunderstorms:yeahDo you play an Instrument:guitar, but I suckIn the past month have you Drank Alcohol:its against my religionIn the past month have you Smoked:neverIn the past month have you been on Drugs:never touched themIn the past month have you gone on a Date:pathetically, noIn the past month have you gone to a Mall:yeahIn the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:noIn the past month have you eaten Sushi:yeah, and it was good!In the past month have you been on Stage:noIn the past month have you been Dumped:noIn the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:noIn the past month have you Stolen Anything:noEver been Drunk:neverEver been called a Tease:nope, and prbly never willEver been Beaten up:yeah, my sister does it everydayEver Shoplifted:yeah, when I was nineHow do you want to Die:peaceful and painlessWhat do you want to be when you Grow Up:a teacherWhat country would you most like to Visit:JAPAN!!In a Boy/Girl..Favourite Eye Color:green or blueFavourite Hair Color:black Short or Long Hair:shortHeight:about 170 cmWeight:i don't want him to be too fat, if that's what yr askingBest Clothing Style:well keptNumber of Drugs I have taken:?????Number of CDs I own:enough to listen tooNumber of Piercings:one in both ears is enoughNumber of Tattoos:one can be enoughNumber of things in my Past I Regret:who's? mine or his?CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

I couldn't think of any other way to tell you.... But yeah, I think it would work out this time around....so let's do it.... ;) A special tribute to all S.V. marching band people.... My deepest apologies and sympathy to all of you....I know Bedont meant a lot to everyone...if it makes anyone feel better, I'm giving out free huggs if you ever need them..... :)

This is not cool.....I wonder why people are soooo mean some times.... Its just been on been day....church was boring(when has it not?), I can't get my PS2 to work, all my anime shows were just stupid, and now, I can't log onto any of my favorite websites, except this one....so now I have nothing to do....AAGGHH!!! (brief dramatic pause after I have calmed down) I have finally come to the conclusion that keeping a journal is kinda of pointless. I hardly ever remember to update....I'll still write update every now and again for those who still like me or even care, whatever, but it just won't be as often as it was in the past. That is something I decided all on my own... YAY!

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hello everyone. how long has it really been? oh well, i got told by a lot of people at school that i need to update, so here I am. but to be honest, I'm such a boring person living a boring life, nothing has been going on. I won't bore anyone with any details with what HAS been going on....just refreshing and I thought I would let everyone I'm still here... sorry to disappoint any of you. JamisonParker is a really cool band... 4:15 This is really annoying...my friends list doesn't exist anymore, so I've got to go through and find everyone! DAHHH!! 4:32 Its been almost 15 minutes and I've got my friend list back to normal...i think... (pesimast thought) isn't it ironic that i actually have friends? does anybody wonder how much i pay them?

so the kid liked the gift we bought him.....yay!! crummy doesn't even come close to what I'm feeling.... I'm going through real tough time right now.....because my brother had to be taken away from us and we have to pay child support while he's living with another family....last night, my dad told me that our bishop said I had to help my parents pay for their bills....I don't know if he made that up, but I just lost it....I was overwhelmed with pressure to do good in school and trying to keep up with my job and stuff and now I have to pay for my parents bills....we have to sell my car so they can pay major bills and I have to withdraw money from savings to buy me a p.o.s...... and all of this is happening to me because of my stupid brother..... its bad enough I don't have a life as it is....but now I'm going to be the social outcast for eternity all because nobody can stay on top.....maybe I should just be a loner....that way, I don't ever have to worry about missing out.... It seems no matter how hard I try to keep my head above water, I keep getting pulled under and I feel like I'm going to drown..... hhhmmmmm....drowning.....that sounds nice....

school is pathetic....we just had a fire alarm....its the third one in two weeks....maybe it should just burn next time.....**sigh** so I helped April collect money for a friend of hers....we were desperately poor losers trying to collect money to buy a spiffy gift for a friend...I don't even know the kid and I'm buying him a gift.... Gotta go....I have to take a test...

nothing happened worth telling....at least I'm alive... NEW PICTURE!!! YAY!!! Everybody meet Kyo Wakamiya and Frey Weilhausen!!

So last night was my first night working....I liked it.....a little too fast for my liking, but I'm told I'll catch eventually....I'm having a hard trying to multi-task in the factory....you have to do one thing, keep an eye on another and try to a random thing.....but a weird thing, while I was working on The "F" Machine, my wrist started hurting really bad.....I think I can't work on that belt anymore....because I was fine before I was rotated there and it took a couple of hours for it to feel better....**sigh** Random thing this morning....I thought I deserved a day of cuteness, so I did my hair really nice and put on some eyeshadow **GASP** people, you act like you're surprised....I guess that is kindof shocking....I wonder if I should do this everyday....hhhmmmmmmm......NAH!

Hungover is how I felt Saturday morning....a funny story actually.... So this anime I went to Friday was the greatest.....I never felt so much hyper energy in one room....anyway, Katie (the hostess) was serving Poky....(they're chocolate covered pretzels-a sweet treat that they eat in Japan)....**try saying that three times fast**.....it just so happens that the third ingredient in Poky is chocolate liquoir....despite the fact that I knew that, I ate three boxes by myself.....THEY WERE SOOO GOOD!!!! I couldn't control myself....and we read manga and watched Excel Saga...(that is the corniest and weirdest anime I have ever seen).....and then we held a memorial burial for Brigadear General Maes Hughes from Full Metal Alchemist...(if anybody is an anime junkie, you know what and who I'm talking about)...yeah..... OH!!! Good news! I have a job!!!! YAY!!! I work in the production line at Casper's....not exactly a dream job, but who cares? If the stupid place pays money, you'll work there anyway!! Bye!!

the computers are acting really weird....like if I go to someone else's diary, I can't get back on mine...its really dumb and tedious still feeling lonely today.....I know why, but I don't want to tell anybody....well, I tried to tell somebody, but she blew me off....**sigh** I'm going to an anime party tonight!! YAY FOR ANIME!!! Its going to be great.... I want to feel alive....will you save me?

I like complaining....I feel very alone.....I'm surrounded by all my friends, but yet I feel apart from them..... eh...

Its been awhile.... The remodeling in my house is almost done...we started laying hardwood flooring last night!! HOORAY!!! I'm gonna have a big party when its done....

Abandoned describes how exactley how I feel today....I had no one talk to this morning or cry on.....it was really depressing....I feel like I'm alone today.... So this morning is a really bad one....I got in a fight with my dad over the remodeling....I don't want to help....I do enough with the house as it is....I do most of the chores and stuff and I don't even have to if I don't want to....I'm 18.....I could tell them to go to hell and go on with my life....but I don't because I have a simple thing called respect.... So this morning, I told my dad that I was staying after school for ceramics and then go with Chelsea to listen to jazz....and he told me if I did, I had to help paint.....I don't want to paint...and he got mad because I told him I'm too busy with homework....and then he said I was lucky enough to do homework at home and that I shouldn't lie to him about doing homework when I was going to a show.... I'M DOING BOTH!!! HELLO??!! Honestly, that man is so dumb....so I got frustrated and walked away....5 minutes later he called me back and told me that I could go, but he said it in a tone that said, "you can do what you want, but your mother will talk to you about this...." sort of thing.... So I don't know what I'm going to do....I want to go, but I don't my mom talking to me....maybe I will go....I don't know....I guess we'll see what happens....

What does aloof mean? So, I've been told I had to renew my diary or Megan was going to kill me.... So last week was a really bad week.....everyday was just horrible...I HATED IT!!! But Thursday night was okay because Chelsea and Amy invited me to go to Borders....that was fun.....I like jazz...do you like jazz? And Friday was an awesome day...it was just good...I actually had fun friday.... OH OH!! Good news.....my family is remodeling!!! we finally get rid of our icky brown carpet and nice pretty hard wood....I'm really excited!! now I just need money to repaint my room and it will be great! I think I'm done...