my boss pretends not to hate, but the guy might as well have it written on his forehead. so i kinda quit on tuesday. i told my supervisor/boyfriend jared, and even though he doesn't want me working there anymore, he actually got upset. and is still upset "at the situation" or me... i feel bad that i let him down. i mean i have felt badly about a lot of things lately, but that kinda made me hit rock bottom. i guess it's only fair that he is treating me indifferently now. you know that way people talk when they think less of you, but then deny that they said it any way other than normally, and make you feel crazy like you are reading too far into things? yeah, i hate it. i know we love each other. that's not the problem at all. and i know we can work through this. but i just wish i could fast forward to the good times again and not have to fight and say means things to each other before we get there. i am such a bitch now, and i am so sorry that i am. not like pms bitchy. i am downright hurtfull. and i really don't want to be. i know it's all in my mind, i have to really tell myself to see fights as productive, but all the yelling and frustration upsets me. it's a psychological thing i guess. psychology. ppffff. i took 4 years of it, and for what? i understand why i do the crazy ass things i do a little better. great. even worse, when i say i understand wy someone else is reacting the way they do to something they get pissed like i am saying i'm better than they. i'm not. i just understand that classical conditioning is the strongest thing that determines reactions. my problem too. i'm right next to you fighting too.