ok. so here's the deal. We went on a mission trip to Mississippi. "The Duke" asked Joy if I liked him...at the time I didn't...however...now I do...very much so.So...I've been dropping serious hints about this for a while now...but aparently "The Duke" cant take a hint, and probably dosen't suspect a thing. I would make a move...however...I'm all "self-concious" and dont feel like I'm good enough.So I talked to Briana and she was all,"let him make the 1st move"and I was all,"he's too f'ing stupid". so I gotta move on...but I haven't liked a guy like this in a LOOOOOOONG time. And it's all Fith Troupe's fault with her stupid,"i love you no matter what, Duke" because since she likes him..this weird thing happens where I like him too. grr...i dont like this. it's not fun. not when I'm like 100000000000000000000000000.2% sure that he dosen't like me back..so why would I risk my social status by doing something and he dosen't even like me back? It's seriously bothering me too. cuz when we went on the picnic, I made it pretty obvious that I DIDN'T like him(even though I really do)by refusing to sit by him....that was kinda mean...I should feel bad...nope,not working...oh well.so I do like him...this is MADNESS! STOP THE MADNESS!!!!!!!!AHHHH!!!OH...HYPER.why do I like him? to tell you the truth...I can't name one thing that attracts me to him in the least.Everything about him is so completly UN-ATTRACTIVE that..it's unbelievable that I like him...I mean REALLY LIKE him. It's amazing how much I love him...yet I know that he'll never love me the same way.