It goes w/ the theme and im just playing around seeing what I can do. _+_+_+_+_+_+ Well today sucked really badly I hate even days I hate them w/ such a passion. I love swim but sometimes I want 2 join cheer again I had the best time at w/ it last year but I’m not nearly as ditzy as those other girls and if I make it I think I would end up killing one of them maybe drop a couple on purpose.... I’m listing 2 Amy Grant one of her Christmas CD’s. I don’t know y just had a big desire 2 hear breath of heaven... I just feel really bad I don’t get me I wish I could change what I’m feeling right now but nothing is making me happy. I cant get happy at all no matter what I do o well ill deal w/ it. I wish I could have a full day of being happy. I really want it just a day that I won’t doubt myself that I know things r ok maybe I don’t deserve. I’m not a good person I don’t tell any one every thing about me I open up really easy I just don’t say things I think some things r 2 remain a secret but I do I feel like a bad person a lot of the time o well since I realize it maybe I can change it.