i honestly feel alone.... i know it sounds stupid but the only person around that i love im not aloud to see i have to sneak around and constantly get in trouble for it.... everyone else seems to talk bad about me... i dont care if i bring it on or if its true just why dose it have to happen... this is kind of coming from me finding out that when i dont go to youth group someone i really love goes and talks bad about me to my little sister... so at church and my little sister... dose that really need to happen? But thats not the only time its just one of the upsetting ones... i dont get it im fucking alone now i used to have everything figured out. who the hell knows im just sick of it. im sick of feeling like i only have one person to watch my back and everyone else is trying to stab it. I need people to back off for a while just let me be. i dont even hang out with anyone from canyon so why dose it matter?!?!? God damn it i wish i had a real journal but my mom kind of fucked that one up.