yes i have almost forgotten about you diary. i dont even know what to put in here anymore. i realized today that maybe ive never let someone really hurt me but in reality ive been hurt over and over. but i dont know what. or even how to change it. maybe im just dirty and cant hold onto anything. or maybe because with each new bed its a whole new adventure. so may good and bad things to both sides. yet ive only experienced one. ive always been the slut since 8th grade i was the bad girl. and i always though it rocked. but maybe it dosnt. im not saying im over all of it but at least some. idk somethings is probably gonna change and maybe soon who knows. maybe it will all just stay the same.