I don’t want to talk about my days anymore there all pretty much the same now... i want something really exciting to happen to me not something bad just exciting... Well humm I lack in the boy department big time any one want to help me out... I really think I want that special bond with a guy mostly just someone that I can just talk to for hours but still have him expect me to tell him nothing. Someone that wants to just go play have fun nothing more, and is willing to come get me just to drive around and do nothing but chict chat the day away... I think I just want the closeness. I still like that idea about the hole secret relationship thing... not telling anyone making it your own little adventure but I think that would only work for a while but maybe it would be a good idea while your just seeing someone so you can make your own judgment about them. Maybe that’s what I want... I don’t want the responsibility of a boyfriend but I want someone to care for me... I don’t know what I want I don’t even care ill just let things play out but I’m done being shy about feelings ill start to be more up front now... Ugg well I’m off to think about life I’m a little confused about it... ********* I was just insulted in a funny way... i toled somone that i act dumb around guys i like and he toled me not to like him... soooo mabie he thought i liked him?? so than dos he think i act dum around him.