My sister is a wreck.. Tyler can't stop crying.. The family is worried sick.. And me.. I don't know where I come in. I feel as if I'm just watching everything from a far. Or maybe it's more like I'm walking through a bad dream and soon I'll wake up. I dont know. The past couple of nights have been hell. This was my first weekend away from Aaron. And I had dreams of him packing up and leaving.. just leaving without saying good-bye, nothing. And dreams of us commiting suicide. Lovely 'ol suicide. I actually hit this time. The bottom I mean. Scared the shit out of me. Woke up screaming.. no one heard, thank God. ..More people are arriving. I need to get ready.