Wow first off my profile still says Im 18...I never knew I had this thing for so long,lol..... So anyway this is what is ok, down to the point. The girl that I hated the most, at one point in time, fell right into my arms and has stolen my heart. And for so many reasons I couldnt be any happier that she did. I fell in love with her over summer and shes everything that I would want in a girl and more....nice huh? well...She also happens to be my ex from 3 years ago. Yes, yes the one that tore my heart and dumped it in the street...lol. but that was forever and a day ago... I know this is definitely a weird story but It just keeps getting better, hold on... We started talking to each other again and made ammends and stuff last year. But the point is its been like almost 3 months and Im not sure whats going on in this relationship. I keep letting myself fall more and more in love with her(which, isntmy fault, she's just so damn perfect...lol). whats the problem...? Well she goes to UCLA, 2 hours away from. Shes been in Summer school for like a month or so and shool is starting up soon. AAANNNDDDD She parties....hard, which, is fine you know thats what you do in college. Fine until we talked one night and she said that she doesnt want to see me on halloween...again, which is fine. Well fine until she said because she wants to party....lol. Her partying is fine until I feel like its more important then me(well thats how I feel things will end up).. I think our lives are so far apart right now and that the odds are against us. She hasnt done anything wrong I just feel we're in 2 different worlds right now. I want this to work out so bad, probably more then anything else in this world.... I just feel like God is telling me to move on, but I refuse to. And my worst fear is that God gets what God wants. And I know she loves me a lot....I dont know if she loves me as much, but shes not an expressive person. What should I do? I love her... P.S. sorry if this is butchy I just kinda threw this together