I have an amazingbest friend, and words couldn't possibly give her justice. The only thing is that she lives a state away and although her time here has been lenghthed, it is still up in 2 weeks. Mentally I can depend on her for the rest of my life, but physically I can't and there is just so much you can ask for.
I do not have a boy to take up my time and to share these lovely rainy afternoons, that we have been having lately, with and I love them oh so much. A boy who gets me, but still accepts me for being simply me. It doesn't make me very sad that I don't have one when compared to how sad it makes me to think how hard a boy like this is to find.
Surprisingly, I have an incredible relationship with my mother that can't go far because of the mother - daughter restraints that cause you to keep certain things. Although she can be here for me physically, in no way can she be there mentally.
[Gosh.]
So here I go. Searching for that rock figure in my life. Someone who will not leave me and can be there in my life the way I want to be there for them in thier life.
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[On days like this, Streams of rain pour out of clouds, so naturally, My eyes start to imitate, And rain streams of tears with lost passions and unknown fears, Flood my face.]
so i have accepted the fact that i cant rely on anyone but myself
:(
I totally feel what you're feeling..couldn't have worded it better myself.
be well.
Vannessa