Today I am not seeing my girl Tricia. Her dad will be having dinner with her and thats totally fine. I went out to rent the third smackdow game. Anyway I feel lonely. I only feel this way when I am not with her or Jesus. The thing is that when she is goen I start thinking things out of place and a bit selfish. Like Tricia when she goes out with her dad she dresses to impress him which is fine ot look good for your father that has raised you but when she looks nice she looks so gourgous. I feel so far away from her like I can picture me aa a begger and I see her though a window with her family and she sits there quickly and lady like. My god she is beuitful. So few people have seen her like that. Her fahter and mother and myself. She can wear anything and looks so beutiful. I feel closest to her is when she wears her confy clothes. Jeans a T shirt maybe my Staind shirt or Korn shirt and a bit of make up and that eye shadow I like. Either blue my fav or purple which is a nice color on her. she looks nice and it makes me laugh cause it reminds me of my grandmothers eye make up which is cool. Tricia looks hot but casual and matches with my casual self. I can look nice cleaned up or so they say. It just I dont feel like me. I really love her just that I just want to be perfect for her. I want to experience so much with her. I want so badly to take her to a classical concert. I love classical music with lots of insruments. I am not a fan of chorus cause if it vocal I want to hear lyrics sounding alot like poems or have meanings I guess thats why I like rock so much. By the way I went ot hooters with my mom and you know what is the most funnest thing ever is that I heard Tricia's song and the most meaning full thing is I never heard it on the radio ever again until I started dating her.