Hmm what can i say about today, the day started normal went the the music lab so I can listen to Peter and the Wolf which is a great piece then touched up on my Access skills for my computer test. Then I find out that my girlfriend wants to kill herself because she has no friends, no job and her education is going down the drain whihc is not true. Well if you have never read BabelMatrix's diary go do so now to understand. I have been watching Babel or Jesus as we call him cutting down on friends its was two which I am guessing Tricia and I. Now I think I am the only one left. I am not sure why he has this idea that Tricia wants me to skew(i think thats the word I want to use) him. It wouldnt complete some master plan if I scream at him in fact I dont want to scream at him. But I have to protect Tricia's health and thats why I ask both of them not to bring up a certain subject. Yet it got worse. So bad that Tricia needed to smoke and I fucking hate that. But of course I have to deal with it. I was really praying nothing bad would happen the day before Thanksgiving(would suck if she needed to spen a Thanksgiving in a hospital like last year.) But I feel for my love Tricia casue for some odd reason they are dying to throw her in a ward in the slightest trace of depresstion which is no fair for her cause she cant have a bad day and it sucks for me cause thats even more time away from me(she has been away from me a total of around liek a 1 and a half years I guess) but about me well I think if I get an A in computer class I have a great shot of keeping a some what good average. I think tomorrow will b e a good day, well I hope. Oh and now Tricia will be working at the book store so thats very cool. Congrets sweetheart