howdy hooe, got the new cradle of filth it beats my ass off. i went to my friend chads house this past umm few days or something it was intersting to say the lest. starting to build me an rpg useing the neverwinter nights toolset if anyone wants to help with an area i can send u my script well iam starting a script heh. i miss my g/f :( tara i love u so much more and more every passing day. check out one of my poems anyone heh ill post my death letter today its not a suicide note so dont think that and start flaming me for it . i wrote it before i broke up with my x-g/f angela and realized i needed to be with tara good day everyone ---------Letter to my priest to read upon my death---- If you are reading this I want to ask that you dont rephrase any of the words I speak for they are my last words and thought before I lay to eternal rest. i am writing this today thinking about what might become after i die. i think about my family how much i loved them my animals how much a cared for them. heh its funny when i was little one of my dogs died and i was told she went to doggie heaven, funny how times change. as you hear this iam lying in my coffin ready for what lies behind me and what to see in front of me. you all knew me as an outspoken person i dont hide what's on my mind i hope you all take what i say and live by it because if you hold back feelings and dont live life to the fullest you will have died for nothing, you dont have much time here so make the best of it with what you got. most of everyone i know knows i dont believe in a heaven or afterlife but if the chance is that i am wrong ide rather spin an eternity in hell then to fallow the ways of a god that makes his slaves choose a left or right hand blindly without knowing what's in store if he choses the wrong hand. if there is not a heaven but in fact an after life ill hope to see you all soon and i will be watching over you. and finally if there is no afterlife or a heaven and there is nothing when we die then I will be happy for my painful mind has been put to sleep for the last time. Keep me in your memories for the only true death is to be forgotten. James