wow 1 more day till tara comes and sees meh i cant wait its gona be amazing. i really happy right now i just got done talking to my x-g/f and she finnaly see's things my way that we wernt right for each other. just blinded by our own insucrites . i was and still am scard about my future, i dont want to turn out like the rest of my family. most of my family never got to go to collage and most wont help me at all. i think thats why i stayed with angela for thoes 5 years. i didnt see myself doing things on my own or without her like i needed her to amount to anything. iam past that now i use thoes thoughts as my own motovation to do better. i was also scared and vary skeptiable about finding someone that would have so much in common with me that we could do everything togather. me and angela never did anything togather and she would always call me names and i would get mad at her and we would start arguing all the time. aruging was like a daily event for us. i hated it. i didnt get relived of thoes insurcurties till i meet tara. i think vary highly of tara she is a vary amazing person i would never think in 1000 years i could have someone as grate as she.and now she is comeing down and i couldnt be happier. i cant wait to start my life with her and for the first time in my life iam not afraide to do it iam looking foward to it and i love every min of it cuz i get to share it with someone who loves me for who i am and a person i can wake up to wont mind sleeping with and looking foward to seeing for the rest of my hopefully long life . i love u tara more then i can ever say . leave some feed back for meh heh i love hearing u guys randoms or not :) laters