After re-reading the last entry.. We're fine. We moved into the apartment, were able to afford groceries and are still able to afford them. I got some much needed help and am getting about $1,000/ mo. at least until I'm 8 months pregnant. Then we'll probably be hurting a little bit. But since we're getting this extra money, we'll be able to save. Stupid Recession. I so hope it doesn't get worse.. I'd really hate to raise my first child in a Depression. I went to the doctor yesterday, after FINALLY recieving my medical insurance. IT'S A BOY!! Seeing the baby on the ultrasound for the first time was amazing. That doesn't even begin to tell it.I haven't found the words to describe how happy/excited/anxious (in a good way) I am. I'm looking forward to the months to come and then the years after!! =] That's the update. It's time for lunch and a nap.

I was ready to come here, talk about how I vented to my mom about everything and now I'm fine. That was until this morning. Will and I got into another argument, that could have been avoided. He had a last minute mood change and decided to argue with me RIGHT before he left for work. I thought it was weird how he initiated the argument after he opened our bedroom door, the whole time his sister was in the kitchen and could hear everything. We found out today that his check is BARELY enough for us to move. Meaning we wont have money for groceries in the new apt. When I hear how much is in the account, I sit up in bed and just hunch over thinking about how we can do this. Even if it means borrowing money from someone, I'm willing to put my pride aside and ask. However, it's not my pride at stake here regardless of who asks. When he sees that I'm contemplating, he assumes that I'm upset and asks me what's wrong. He also reassures me that, "Everything will be fine." After this, he starts throwing a fit; grunting and sighing, riping his undershirt, kicking his shoes.. a fit that a child would throw. So I tell him, "You're making this day bad for yourself, no one is doing this but you. I know we don't have much money but we can figure something out, you don't have to assume the worst and act like a kid." He kind of laughed it off and finished getting ready. Then as soon as he was ready, he opened the door to the room, sat on the end of the bed and proceeded to say, "I don't know how we're going to do this. We don't have the money." Stuff of that nature. He went to grab his phone and wallet to leave and he tossed his wallet saying, "I guess I wont need this today." He turns around and says to me, "I'm not getting a 950 dollar money order because we wont have money for food. You have to eat, right?" I don't think I was doing or saying anything to really irritate the situation, I was just asking what we were going to do. He got offended and continued to throw a fit saying, "We need 200 more dollars so we can get groceries." What the hell do we need 200 dollars for?! We can make it off around 70-100 dollars for two weeks of groceries.. Might sound impossible, but I can bargain shop like a motherfucker. So I asked him what we needed the extra money for. And it clicks.. He's more fucking worried about getting his fix of nicotine than he is feeding us! I straight up asked him, "What do you need the extra money for, dip?" He got so pissed didn't even respond. Stormed out of the house, slamming the front door on the way out. That's obviously what he was thinking about. I don't put up with that shit. I immediately locked the door behind him and went about my morning. I heard him come back to the door, try to open it and then hit the door when he figured out it was locked. I still don't care. He knows that I'm not going to put up with this stupid shit. He sent a text apologizing saying he'd figure something out. So ALL of that and we're back where we started. I've been texting my brothers to see if they can help and he asked his mom. She said she'd be able to help some but her check was smaller than she expected this week so she wont be able to help out more. My brothers can help, they just can't help right now. I knew that we would be able to figure something out. Don't get me wrong, I hate having to ask for help, but I'm glad someone is willing. It's not like this willbe an every month occurance.. At least, it better not be.

But I don't have much to write. I'm frustrated with Will.. It's all over money. I'm just tired of feeling like the only one worried about what we're going to do and how we're going to make it. His constant money spending is not working and he blames it on me. Says he figures I should know how much is in HIS account, so when I want to buy something, he assumes that I know how much is there. And he continues to spend money, knowing we have none, because he EXPECTS me to ask my family to borrow money when he could just stop fucking spending so much. It's stressful. He has made it perfectly clear that he doesn't want me working, especially now that I'm pregnant. We wont be able to live like that. So he doesn't want me to work yet he relies on me to ask my family for help? How does that make him look? Like a man who can't take care of his responsibilities. Ugh. I want to get back into school but I'll, more than likely, have to take courses online. No biggie, except for the fact that neither of us have a computer and the apt is not internet ready yet. So I'm trying to figure out what I can do to help that wont hinder him too much.. I mean, shit, he doesn't even have to know. But obviously he's not stressing about shit like I am, so I have to do something about this situation. I've constantly filled out applications to various places who claim to be hiring and have not heard anything yet. I have one that I've gotto finish in store, and I would actually really like to get that job. I feel like I'm 18 again, fresh out of high school and trying to find any damn place to hire me. That's horrible. But when I was 18, I had a job waiting for me. I just don't know. I don't want to take out any school loans and I'd rather not ask my family for help, but he isn't taking control like he should. I'm going to go clean now.

I'm not having a "strawberry" war. I'm not having any kind of fruit war. But seriously? Soo, I've been feeling like eating fruit more and Will has helped by buying me different fruits: peaches, plums & strawberries. The whole reason we bought more strawberries was because his sister had some and I didn't want to eat all of them. I ate one and was hooked, so we bought a pound of organic strawberries. Well, the day we got them, I placed them directly on top of his sister's box strawberries because I figured we'd finish ours before they would touch theirs. I noticed the same night that their strawberries were pushed to the back of the shelf and ours were upfront. I'm assuming they thought that the organic strawberries were theirs because they primarily eat organic foods, HOWEVER the brand we bought was THE ONLY brand at the grocery store we went to. EDIT: I thought sitdiary autosaved this shit every minute or so? This fucking this just erased over 3/4 of what I typed... THANK YOU SITDIARY FOR ADDING ONTO MY BAD MORNING. I'm pissed.

I pretty much went off on Will, unintentionally of course, about his sister. I told him I thought about it and maybe we should tell her. It's going to come out eventually and she's going to have something to say regardless. He said he didn't really want to deal with it right now because he knows that she and her husband/bf are going to go off. What the fuck do they have to say? She had her son the same age that I am except she didn't want a kid. And I'm not saying that I wanted one and we tried to have one or anything like that. It happened and I'm glad it did is what I'm saying. I'm not looking at this in any negative way. whatsoever. Will just said he didn't want to hear it. THAT'S when I went off on him. He's 24 years old and so what, he lives with his Sister. She made a comment last night, "I thought a couple was supposed to live with the girl's family, not the guy's." She lived with her boyfriends MOTHER. I don't understand Will's relationship with his sister and I feel bad. Primarily because I have a good relationship with my brothers but I can put my foot down and be firm with them without hurting anyones feelings. If they have something to say about me and my life they can get over it because it is mine to deal with. He needs to learn to be able to do that with HIS family. They've constantly been on him and have talked down to him like he's some sort of fuck up. This is his chance to prove to them that he's not. And it's a chance he better take. haha, really though. I don't know. I just don't like it. And I told Will that if after he tells his sister that I'm pregnant and she still has something to say then I'll tell her something. She's not going to say anything about me and my baby. Period.

I'm not really feeling it today. I have to clean the house (simply because no one else will) and quite frankly, I really don't feel like doing it today. I'm sort of feeling sick. The start of a haedache and been feeling a little ill. I just want to lay back down but that's all I do lately. I'd like to be able to tell Will's sister that I'm pregnant but I really feel like it's only going to be negative. BUT maybe if we tell her she'll lay off him and be a little more cooperative. It's not that we're asking anything from anyone other than keeping their negative comments to themselves. We know;it's soon.we're young.I'm not working.it's hard. It happened and it's not going away. Not that I want it to, everyone else just needs to see that. But we love each other.And we're not THAT young.Me not working is (hopefully) temporary.I've taken care of so many kids in my own family, since I was about 7 years old, that It's probably not going to be too far off from anything I've already experienced. Maybe Will doesn't know too much about what he's doing but I'll do the technical stuff and he can do the dirty work.. Granted, I'll probably be doing the dirty work, also. I'm just excited. I'm happy and I really couldn't ask for anything else. I'm so torn because I really WANT and need to work, especially while I can before the baby is born. However, I also WANT and NEED to go back to school.. And It's like the perfect opportunity for me to. I guess I can look into doing both right now and then primarily focus on school once the baby is born. I know it's going to be tough but this is something I've got to do. Not only do I have ot better my life for myself but now, definitely, for the baby. I want to be a good mom and I never want the baby to do without anything. I might not be able to provide the world right now but I'd like to do as much as I can. Anyway.. I've noticed lately that my sense of smell is getting stronger. And my sense of taste is off. They go hand in hand but I wouldn't think that my sense of taste would be altered too much.. I should know better,though. =) My stomach hurts a little so, yeah, I'm going to lay down for a bit.. Watch some T.V. or something... Try not to think about everything so much. Meh.

But I'm pretty sure crazies are stalking my diary since they can't access my facebook. And I'm the one who needs to get a life? I'm trying to live mine; go some where else and bother them over there. I'm sure they'll figure you out, just like I did.

So i went through and deleted any and every entry that said something about Charlie. I don't see him the same, I haven't for a WHILE. I don't even find him attractive any more. I'm very much so attracted to my current bf. We've been serious since April 11th of this year. I love him, so much. More than anyone I've ever "loved" and that's why I'm happy to be pregnant, now. I don't know what the hell I'd do if it happened with anyone I was with before. I've totally changed, though. I value life a whole lot more than I value partying. I always partied with Charlie. Drank, smoked weed and took adderall.. That was like, our thing. When I was with Mike, I smoked, popped different pills and drank. Even when I was with Justin I did the same. Now I'm with my wonderful Will and I don't do anything. At all. We've smoked together, but it didn't feel right. I've just gotten to that place where I'm happier knowing whats going on around me rather than staying under some influence and having no idea. Will really helps me with that. He's a positive influence in my life that I not only need but I want very much. I love him and I'm SOO happy with him. I can't wait until August! This weekendor the beginning of next week we're going to put the deposit down on the apt. We might do half this check and half the next check. Idk, but Everything will be paid for by August 1st and we'll be able to MOVE! Yay. I'm excited. Move, then puppies, then (in 9 months) a baby. =) I'm starting a family. Wow! But I couldn't be happier! Well, if I had a job I would be. =D

I'm pregnant. EDIT: It's my boyfriend's, in case there was question. We're moving in with each other next month and we plan on getting married soon after, both of which were in plan anyway. My being pregnant is just making everything that much more REAL. We'll probably wait until after the baby is born, to get married, so I can get as much help [from the state of course] while I'm pregnant and shortly after. I'm going to look into going back to school. I know, I know.. I always talk about "looking into getting back into school." But this is the perfect opportunity forme to really focus on bettering myself fornotonly me but for my soon to be family. I'm extremely excited and can't wait to be a mom! =)

Well,we had a talk.It wasn't exactly what I hoped it would be but you can't expect a teenager to understand any responsible adult's position. Especially when said teenager has never had any responsibilities of their own. She didn't even go to high school so I should know better. I got home yesterday, after having to go back up to the airport to pick Phillip up because he missed his flight, and the guys were there. It was about 7:30ish and attitude was thrown at me from the moment I walked in the house. So I calmly asked her upstairs so we could talk. The talked lasted MAYBE 2 minutes before she got loud and started running her mouth.I asked how long the guys were going to be there and when they got there. After she told me that I told her I wasn't comfortable with them staying the night (not that I wasn't comfortable with them being there) and she got upset with me. As soon as a penis is involved she goes nuts and can't control herself. Not to mention that she lets all these different dudes disrespect her and I don't like that, considering that I see her as my best friend. Now, I'm not sure what's going to happen. She got mad and completely threw a fit because those guys were there so I left.As we were leaving she was steadily running her mouth so I called her mom and let her know that I wasn't going to stay there last night and I'm not sure how much longer I'm going to be staying there now that this has happened. I really didn't want to involve her mom, I figured it would be something we could both handle as adults. Boy was I wrong. That girl has so much growing up to do. And she's not a bad person by any means and she hasn't been a bad friend until recently. I don't know what's gotten into her and I try to talk to her as a friend and a human being but last night she was not cooperating. And maybe I shouldn't have said anything to her and I should have just let her do her own thing but I really wasn't comfortable with the situation. Now there's drama for no reason when all she could have done was just say, "I understand." I guess the drama is that neither of us got our way but in the end, she did.She "won" that round, but it wont be the last. I'm tired of her thinking she can just walk all over me and talk down to me simply because a dude was involved. A dude she JUST met at that. I don't understand kids these days.

Where do I start.. First, I live with my bro, his gf and her daughters. One of her daughters happens to be one of my best friends, we've grown extremely close (especially since I've moved in over there) Well, this weekend my brother and his gf went camping and left me to watch the house & extra car. The number one rule that I was aware of was no one comes over.. No parties and such but friends that the family knows is fine. Last night I was told otherwise by my best friend. She told me her mom said it was okay for people to come over as long as she was responsible about it and everything was fine. Okay. I didn't argue with it, I'm not going to. So, she invited some guys over we met the other night. The other night, the guy that she was hanging out with and interested in hit on me. I didn't like it, i felt totally disrespected and I felt like he disrespected her as well. I didn't like that at all. I told her what happened and I explained to her why I was telling her and why I was uncomfortable with the situation. She understood, that night. Last night she decided to invite them over and I told her she shouldn't take things any further with the guy because it would only make the both of us look stupid and it would give him leverage to continue disrespecting her... I'll be damned if he's going to disrespect me again.. Anyway, she disregarded what I said and "hung out" with him. So I left, I wasn't going to stay at the house with that negative energy. While I was gone I called her to make sure they were going to leave the house. They didn't need to be there period and they definitely didn't need to stay the night. She disregarded that, too. When I called her, it was about 3 in the morning, they were still there and I told her, "I am not comfortable with them staying the night; they need to leave." She said, "I know, okay.. I know, okay." I could tell she was agitated with me because I was asking that of her but I would expect her to consider my feelings and acknowledge that I wasn't comfortable with the whole situation. She didn't. She's supposed to be my best friend and she put a guy that she met less than a week ago in front of me. That's not a good friend. The thing is, I know she's a good friend and she's capable of being a good friend but when her other friend Sam is involved, she completely forgets about everyone else. What bothers me the most about this is that I'm upset about her inviting a dude to stay the night that I told her I was uncomfortable with. How does that make me feel? What else has she ignored when it comes to being a good friend to me? Why would she do that to me, period? I know for a fact that if I was hanging out with a guy and she told me that she wasn't comfortable with him staying the night, I would ask him to leave because she's my best friend and I actually care about her feelings. I don't know how to feel about the whole situation and I don't know what I should do about it. No one was supposed to be at the house. She invited some dudes over. After I asked her not to have them spend the night, she did anyway. And the thing is, I don't want to tell her mom all this but her mom needs to know because that's not cool at all. This shouldn't be looked past. It's a big deal to me, even if it's not to her. She has shown me how much I mean to her and that's not at all. I would never intentionally disrespect any of my friends like that and I feel like that's what she did to me. I'm not looking forward to the talk with her, but she needs to know that she hurt my feelings. And it's hard for me to say that.

Let's see how much I can get in here without taking too much time. I'm working now, temporarily. I'm hoping it'll be permanent but for now, it'll do.I'm working as a leasing agent at a "manufactured home community."Yeah, a trailer park. It's not bad, though.It's nice, clean, quiet and whatever might be wrong with it, we're working to get it fixed. I should be working right now but it's fine. I like working here because I get to meet new people every day AND it's a job. It's not a bad job, either. I'm still single and I'm kind of tired of that.Exes are talking to me and I'm kind of considering it but I want something different, too. I don't know. I'm taking things as they come. I have more to add but a tenant came in and distracted me, now I've got to get back to work. =)

I'm no longer living at home... Or well, I should say with my mother and step father. Still not working, I'm disappointed about that. tHIS COMPUTER FRUSTRATES ME, i'LL COME BACK.

=] It's snowing. In Houston.. This is.. The 4th time it's snowed here in my life, I love it. Okay.. sooo. I'm single. Single. Unemployed. Back at home. I hate it. All of it. Well I'm kind of enjoying being single because it's been a while.. So that's nice. It's just news. I'm pretty much lost right now. I have no idea who I am or what I'm doing. I don't know where I'm going. I almost want to retreat back to my old ways and my old friends.. But I'm happier now. I'm in a better place, even if it does suck. I might not like my situation but it's all about improvement, now. I wish I would have had this mind frame in high school. I'm 22 years old.. Graduated when I was 17 years old, with honors. I could have a legit bachelor's degree right now; i could have done SO much.. I'm not even in school any more. I feel like such a loser, but it's just the circumstances. I know I'm not. At least I'm acknowledging now that I need to change instead of ten years from now. I really need to change.. just focus on me and change EVERYTHING.. I don't know. I just don't know. This post was lame. I'll be back.

Now is not the time for me to update EVERYTHING but there will be some soon. Bed now, hopefully snow tomorrow.

I need someone taller than me. Someone bigger. I'm freaking 6'0" tall. I need a man. I don't want to be with anyone who is emotionally unstable. I need to be the emotional one in the relatonship, not him. I need someone who loves God and who has accepted him. and someone who likes tattoos and piercings would help a lot, too. I feel like i'ma sking for the impossible, but I know that God has a plan and knows what he's doing. I just have to let things happen and not expect too much.

1-- Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully. 2-- Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other. 3-- Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want. 4-- When you say, "I love you," mean it. 5-- When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye. 6-- Be engaged at least six months before you get married. 7-- Believe in love at first sight. 8-- Never laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much. 9-- Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely. 10-- In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling. 11-- Don't judge people by their relatives. 12-- Talk slowly but think quickly. 13-- When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?" 14-- Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk. 15-- Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze. 16-- When you lose, don't lose the lesson. 17-- Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions. 18-- Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship. 19-- When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it. 20-- Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice. 21-- Spend some time alone.

This is what I look like before make-up. This is what i look like after make-up. it does wonders!

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Sun in Cancer, Moon in Scorpio You were born with the Sun in Cancer and the Moon in Scorpio. Your inner nature is more natural, sensitive, easy-going, and frank than your personality would indicate. You were born with the potential to live life simply, solely concerned with satisfying your pleasure-seeking impulses. Others may view you as a very firm, self-reliant, determined, and strong personality. You are clear and abrupt, energetic, positive, and capable of carrying out projects that involve hard work and dedication. On the same level, you are also fond of the good things of the world. Your personality is irritable and you may be subject to fits of anger. Internally you are a very cautious person; but externally the position of the Moon in Scorpio indicates sensuality. You are inclined to strong pleasures and sexual adventures. You have a way of saying things that makes you appear skeptical and cynical. The secret for a better integration of your personality is to subdue your passions and open yourself to regular influences, so that you may enjoy life in a more realistic and socially acceptable manner. Ascendant in Gemini, Mercury in the First House At the time of your birth the zodiacal sign of Gemini was ascending in the horizon. Its ruler Mercury is located in the first house. Your ascending sign and the position of its ruler offers general information concerning the overall trends of the course of life and complements the data pertaining to your temperament, given previously by the analysis of the combined positions of the Sun and Moon. Gemini is the third sign of the zodiac and among its key psychological influences over life there are the following: intellectual activities, humanism, and abhorrence of violence, constant doubt of all mental concepts, hesitancy and academic interest. People whose ascending sign is Gemini usually appear as elegant, slender, expressive, and with very humane facial expressions. They are individuals with some literary inclination, dexterous with manual labors and crafts, apt, able, witty, inventive and very curious and subtle. A Gemini in the ascendant will always distinguish herself by her rather eloquent speech and writing, her much occupied daily life, and her perpetual lack of an ability to effect swift and determined decisions. As a Gemini, you should try to compensate your hesitancy with fast thinking. Your disposition to life-events will be kind and generous (within bounds) but not always fortunate, because of too much vacillation in decision-making circumstances. You possess the capability of rising in life because of your own intellectual assets. Your mind is open and generous, and your intellect self-sufficient; yet on many occasions, judgment will appear as "twisted". You should restrain useless discussion, strife, and unprofitable argument as they're your worst enemies. To achieve success, you should stress your literary and scientific studies, give free hand to your brilliant intellect in warranted circumstances, and apply your diligent nature to writing, traveling, communications, and human analysis. In all these activities you are at your best. You seem to be definitely signified with a restless and changeable spirit prone to perpetual concern and questioning. Communication, writing, speech, make for a hectic life and may result in making you a nervous and hurried person, incapable of tranquillity. Sun in the First House The Sun is in the first house. You are by nature energetic, proud and self-assertive. You project yourself enthusiastically and energetically into all situations. Your naturally outgoing disposition and personable manner usually make a good impression on people. Your heightened self-perception puts you in touch with a strong sense of will, and you can manipulate your will to suit your aims and desires in life. This position of the Sun gives the capacity for leadership, for you tend to attract people and to have a strong influence on them when they are with you. You do not like to depend on others, but you hold on to your friends, for they are usually pleased to help you when you need it. You are willing to help close friends who are deserving, but only if you know that your efforts will be appreciated. You often prefer to work alone. However, this is not your only choice, for you adapt well to working with people as long as you are free to express yourself. With a first-house Sun, there is a tendency to overestimate your own worth, but through repeated contacts with others you will inevitably come to a more realistic appraisal of your abilities and potential. Venus in the First House Venus is in the first house. This is a strong position for Venus, for it adds charm to your personality and gives you an amiable and pleasant disposition. You concentrate a great deal on your appearance and even if you are not especially beautiful or handsome, you have a quality of softness and friendliness, which endears you to many. You like to keep beauty and grace around you as much as possible. You have a strong affinity with nature and prefer the quiet life of the country to the plastic constructions of city life. It is likely that you grew up in an atmosphere of warmth and congeniality. Now it is easy for you to project these same feelings to family and friends, and others often count on you to restore peace in difficult situations. You have strong inclinations toward music, art and drama and you may wish to cultivate a form of artistic expression. You work very hard to get along with others, and you usually try to win arguments with diplomacy rather than force. You must learn to be self-assertive when necessary and to stand up for your own rights, forcefully if need be. Otherwise, people will not have much respect for you. Relationships are important to you, and you often go out of your way to initiate them. It is vital that your associations remain harmonious, because quarrels and disputes affect you adversely. Moon in the Fifth House The Moon was found in the fifth house at the time of your birth. This indicates that you will participate actively in business speculations with many changes occurring in this respect. You were born with a knack for dealing with people and with the ability to communicate with them, particularly in connection with business enterprises. Your emotional nature is very much geared to your love of pleasure, and you possess a very curious aptitude which may bring you financial gains as well as pleasures in business. In spite of the positive qualities you have, the fact of the matter is that in love you are very changeable, unstable, or too preoccupied with trivialities. Your love feelings are very well developed and lead to strong drives for sensations and passionate tendencies which unfortunately are not directed to one object alone. It is possible that throughout life you may be connected with small and numerous business investments with a fairly good return. Saturn in the Sixth House Saturn was found in your sixth house at the time of birth. This is a very faithful position. It indicates that your destiny will be fulfilled by overcoming obstacles in achieving success in your work. In general, your work orientation and general health may be difficult at times, but you have enough willpower and stamina to make the best of them. Even if you find problems in working and you may also be distressed by your relationships with subordinates or fellow employees, you can prove your reliability by doing your duty and taking responsibility for the general work process. Most of the more unfortunate circumstances should be regarded as tests of your character and viewed in this manner, you may obtain much enrichment in your psychic life from this knowledge and experience of pain. Uranus Opposition Ascendant Uranus opposition the Ascendant shows that relationships stand in the way of achieving the freedom you want. You attract people who demand their own freedom, even though it means you must curtail yours, and this annoys you. A traditional marriage is not for you. You prefer a more liberal association in which the only binding agent is your emotional attraction to your partner. You enjoy a wide circle of friends who share your views and with whom you feel safe and secure. You are drawn to occupations that give you freedom to work in your own way, unconfined by rules and regulations. Although you have a mind of your own, you probably are not fully prepared to accept responsibility for your actions. Part of your role in life is to help others gain their freedom by urging them to get an education and to learn about the social and political issues that can affect them. --------------------------------------------------------------------------------