So i went through and deleted any and every entry that said something about Charlie.
I don't see him the same, I haven't for a WHILE. I don't even find him attractive any more.

I'm very much so attracted to my current bf. We've been serious since April 11th of this year. I love him, so much. More than anyone I've ever "loved" and that's why I'm happy to be pregnant, now. I don't know what the hell I'd do if it happened with anyone I was with before.

I've totally changed, though. I value life a whole lot more than I value partying. I always partied with Charlie. Drank, smoked weed and took adderall.. That was like, our thing. When I was with Mike, I smoked, popped different pills and drank. Even when I was with Justin I did the same. Now I'm with my wonderful Will and I don't do anything. At all. We've smoked together, but it didn't feel right. I've just gotten to that place where I'm happier knowing whats going on around me rather than staying under some influence and having no idea. Will really helps me with that. He's a positive influence in my life that I not only need but I want very much. I love him and I'm SOO happy with him.

I can't wait until August! This weekendor the beginning of next week we're going to put the deposit down on the apt. We might do half this check and half the next check. Idk, but Everything will be paid for by August 1st and we'll be able to MOVE! Yay. I'm excited.

Move, then puppies, then (in 9 months) a baby. =)

I'm starting a family. Wow! But I couldn't be happier! Well, if I had a job I would be. =D