I was ready to come here, talk about how I vented to my mom about everything and now I'm fine.

That was until this morning. Will and I got into another argument, that could have been avoided. He had a last minute mood change and decided to argue with me RIGHT before he left for work. I thought it was weird how he initiated the argument after he opened our bedroom door, the whole time his sister was in the kitchen and could hear everything.

We found out today that his check is BARELY enough for us to move. Meaning we wont have money for groceries in the new apt. When I hear how much is in the account, I sit up in bed and just hunch over thinking about how we can do this. Even if it means borrowing money from someone, I'm willing to put my pride aside and ask. However, it's not my pride at stake here regardless of who asks. When he sees that I'm contemplating, he assumes that I'm upset and asks me what's wrong. He also reassures me that, "Everything will be fine." After this, he starts throwing a fit; grunting and sighing, riping his undershirt, kicking his shoes.. a fit that a child would throw. So I tell him, "You're making this day bad for yourself, no one is doing this but you. I know we don't have much money but we can figure something out, you don't have to assume the worst and act like a kid." He kind of laughed it off and finished getting ready. Then as soon as he was ready, he opened the door to the room, sat on the end of the bed and proceeded to say, "I don't know how we're going to do this. We don't have the money." Stuff of that nature. He went to grab his phone and wallet to leave and he tossed his wallet saying, "I guess I wont need this today." He turns around and says to me, "I'm not getting a 950 dollar money order because we wont have money for food. You have to eat, right?" I don't think I was doing or saying anything to really irritate the situation, I was just asking what we were going to do. He got offended and continued to throw a fit saying, "We need 200 more dollars so we can get groceries."

What the hell do we need 200 dollars for?! We can make it off around 70-100 dollars for two weeks of groceries.. Might sound impossible, but I can bargain shop like a motherfucker.

So I asked him what we needed the extra money for. And it clicks.. He's more fucking worried about getting his fix of nicotine than he is feeding us! I straight up asked him, "What do you need the extra money for, dip?" He got so pissed didn't even respond. Stormed out of the house, slamming the front door on the way out. That's obviously what he was thinking about. I don't put up with that shit. I immediately locked the door behind him and went about my morning. I heard him come back to the door, try to open it and then hit the door when he figured out it was locked. I still don't care. He knows that I'm not going to put up with this stupid shit. He sent a text apologizing saying he'd figure something out.

So ALL of that and we're back where we started.

I've been texting my brothers to see if they can help and he asked his mom. She said she'd be able to help some but her check was smaller than she expected this week so she wont be able to help out more. My brothers can help, they just can't help right now. I knew that we would be able to figure something out. Don't get me wrong, I hate having to ask for help, but I'm glad someone is willing. It's not like this willbe an every month occurance.. At least, it better not be.