I am falling faster and deeper into the blackness of space and it is painful. I don't want them to separate in their relationship because of me. I want them to be happy with each other. But yet, I too want to be happy. So do I have to decide if I want to sacrifice my happiness to let them get along? Is it a double-egded blade that is being slammed into my life? Is it for something that I did? I swear I never meant to have anyone get hurt. I fell and I don't know what is going to happen. But, please is there anything I can do. I didn't mean to pull her away. I didn't mean to do anything. I don't know what I mean. I am so confused, I don't know what I should do. I think I will go pray and then call some people. I am sorry for whatever I did to hurt you.