the greatest beauty comes from the greatest pain. or at least that's what i would expect. i cant get her out of my mind. i wish i had something to do today. something fun, something different. here it toronto its the coldest and most miserable its been all winter. you know that saying "hold on to someone throughout the winter" well that what i thought i did, but now winters started up again, i'm stuck inside, cold with nothing to do. i think that at one point, a long time ago, this thing had some insight; now, it is merely full of self pity, emotional frustration and anxiety. maybe some people do read this after all.