what a bitch. i call her today, and she complains about how bored she is. then she gets home, doesn't call me, then is on msn and tell me to call her. then she insults me, isn't helpful at all when i tell about my really horrible dreams, trys and makes me feel guilty, then when her frined comes over, she just says "got to go bye" and hangs up, before even giving me a chance to say goodbye. some best friend. god. i feel so fucking alone. she's like the one person i could talk about such issues. i can't tell carolyn that im having second thoughts, or that someone from my past is tormenting me in my mind. i just feel like shit, and i'm still sick. this sucks. AND THIS whole thing is so pointless. AHHH. im so bored.