i feel stupid and simple. i feel worthless, pointless, and dirty. i wish i could live with some degree of purpose. i can't. nothing has a meaning... i wish the songs that better people wrote for better reasons could show some sort of... i don't know. I wish i could do that. write a song and sing it and play it. but i'd be doing it for all the wrong reasons. and thinking of musicians just makes me think about my lost love, and how she fell for one because he was everything I'm not. I feel so.. bland, unindividual. Boring, Forgetful. I've already forgotten. I hate me. I hate me, and I hate me feeling sorry for myself. I hate so much right now.