today im depress once agian...i want to do something so bad yet i wont... i was close to doing it 2 days ago... but i didnt.. 9 more days of school and things seem to be shitty w/ me and the guy i love so dearly, well reight now im watching One Tree Hill, and yea jimmy eat world is playing and its making me feel more depress.. well part of it is b/c i miss my friends from LA, i need someone to talk to who lives out here and understands me...and Ju..it feels like he doesnt even love me anymore.. i want him to go w/ me to some picnic and he complans that we never do things on the weekend and i had inveted him and he said sure and once out he found out it was for this one thing he back out on it...i want to cry so much and then theres drama w/ my mom and me...ONCE AGIAN...ugg..when will this end? i hope soon..NOT The relationship..the depression..well i better go and keep to my word for pat, gladys and alex.. oh and rick..yuo laters