wow. long time no write... but right now this is the only place where i can just let my feelings go. HOW COULD SHE DO THAT?!?! backstabb me like that. and its my fault for pretending that everything is alright. and then she blames me for bringing her into this situation. and stupid stupid boys. they always cause drama. you would never do that to your friend. its just not right. i dont know what to think anymore. ive become so numb.

why is it that i always befriend the boys that i start to like? theres this boy. and like i think hes amazing. and my friend would want to go out with him, and he was like in love with her... and i want to like him soo bad, but i know it would ruin everything we have. but i really dont know what to do. he is alot younger than me, but he makes me feel special whenever i talk to him.. just the fact taht he thinks of me as a really good friend is enough for me.. but i get nervous everytime hes around.. i just wish i could get a boy.. for once.

ok so its been and EXTREMELY long time since ive updated this... yea. and alot has happened. i stil dont have a boyfriend.. so maybe not that much.. well nothing really. i just realized alot of stuff. like a right boy is gonna come find me, and he will be perfect cause he will like me just the way i am. also that i dont need friends that arent there for you all the time. im ALWAYS there for them, but they can never return the favor. and im kinda gettin tired of it. but yea.. im going to new york real soon to meet up with all my past friends. im soo excited!! but summer has gone by soo fast. like i havent even realized it was summer until now. soon i will be graduating. wow thats a scary thought. i am afraid of life. i dont know whats gonna happen to me once i have to be responsibile of myself. scary thought. well im really tired and i gotta write in my other diary. but if anybody still uses this site. leave a comment.... i would really like to know!! byeeee

i have no clue waht copacetic is but thats what i am. mhm. yepp caseys here. end of story. byeee.

he who made me start wriring again is no longer a part of my life. what was i thinking EW! but yea. i was just in my school musical ONCE ON THIS ISLAND and it was amazing. then after i went to wendys with some friends.. and i finally felt like someone. thats all for now.

he made me start writing again....

ok well ive been taking alot of pictures lately. and i want to know what everybody thinks about them. so yea. clikc on the pics to make them bigger. and letme know what you think.

grrr so theres this boy. hes just a friend though and i want to keep it that way. but he feels otherwise.. i dontknow waht to do cause i lead him on like alot the other day.. and i think he thinks i like him.. grrr the only guy that ACTUALLY likes me has to be somebody that i dont like. how ironic eh? wtf@boyssss

well we won our lacrosse game 14-5. i scored 6 or 7 goals. but i really messed up my arm. like badly... it hurts so much.. well my mommy is gonna massage it for me later.. much love <3

kay so htere so much effing drama.. and its all stupid stuff.. grrrrrrrr my best friend... she can get like any guy she wants... she gets a boyfriend.. a week later.. she decides.. eh forget him.. whatever.. and then decides to hook up with some other guy.. while im here like wanting what she always throws away. and being very jealous.. she needs to appreciate her prettyness... cause i do. afrwrutiwsjerkh theres so much more.. but im going to bed nite aerwu5i6wjekm

cant i get him out of my head? pretty girl is suffering.. while she confesses everything... little can she figure out.. she can never get him out of her head.

kay so theres this boy. and i like him. ALOT. like i have never felt this way about anybody before. and just the fact that hes EVERYTHING in a guy. areftjsoitgskjgn like im so deeply in love.. kinda.. but i really dont think he sees me more than a friend. why does that ALWAYS happen to me?! aDFarjsoitklsrger

well its been a long time since i have wrote in this... and oh boy alot has happened.. but recently.... 1. jackie got a boyfriend today. i guess im jealous? i wanted a boyfirned for a long time.. but i guess noone likes me. 2. so theres this boy. and i like him. i dont think he likes me. im too good of a friend. and yea. im like in tears now... it hurts.. love.

grrr schools really really boring yepp im not listening to tim mcgraw anymore.. I GOT MY IPOD NANO YESTERDAYYYYYY!! woot woot!! yeppp.... well yea im really really bored. video killed the radio star s34THWeb34354 you know waht that means yepp. lol.. im soooo bored. someone amuse me pleassseeeeeeeeee smile for me daddy let me see your grillz... ok show em!!!!! <33333 byeeee

"MUCHO MASTERBATION" -Rent yepp well im in 4th hour. and dana is sitting right next to me. well i brought a YO-YO to school today yepp and me and dana are taking pictures. cause thats what we always do in 4th hour.... and im listening to the rent soundtrack. so yea... I LOVE RENT!!! well the bells gonna ring or something like that so yea.. byeeeeeee!! love 3

HAPPY NEW YEARS EVERYBODYYY!

well its christmas... it was funn... i really didnt do anything. but its ok. how was your christmas??? (to whoever reads this) im kinda bummed. i didnt get an ipod. and i really wanted one o darn :(

kay so rent was AMAZING! like the best movie ever by far. like even better than Pirates of the cariebeean and bad boys 2 yepp like im in love with Rodger! kay so im in the keys right now. and im having alot of fun and now im going to do something instead of sitting here and typing although this keyboard is soo funt to type on. i love this keyboard. like i love it alot! so here im going to type randim stuff. ahahahah ima gettin ima coming sussical was funny hahaha i love adrian gibbs! hhahahhaah katie is reading everything that im writing right now. i am going to play capture the flag tonight with the rhynes and the DIAZ's hahahahhh you dont get but ok. and like so yea um my brother is like sleeping on the floor looking retaredd. o cant spell. you see? I cant spell. lol i love typing like so mcuh but i think i have to stop now so yea gotta go do something useful.. no wait, nevermind. nothing to do. hahah man hunt capture the flag PERIOD!!! HAHAHAHHAHA oh how i love christmas! <333

i dont know what to think. i cant but i can. i cant even maek up my mind. i need tme to think. but i feel that i dont have any. AHHHH he gets me sooooo $#%$&ish. yet soo ♥ish. i dont know what to do. but i think he knows. so nopws its up to him to do something about it. please God, let him do something about it.

well its that time again. christmas is almost here!!! im so excited i love this holiday. its my favorite!!!!!! like i cant wait. man i miss the snow in new york. i wanna go back there sooo effing bad. SOMBODY TAKE ME WITH YOU!!!!! ewfgwhjnr89uiowk now im spazztic merry x christmas