why is when they fucken promise they will call you and fucken dont!!! he fucken knows i was upset yesterday and he fucken promised me!! i fucken hate him...well no but ugh!! BUT YOU KNOW WHAT?!?! I BET YOU HES FUCKEN TALKING TO FUCKEN CARMEN O. WRITE LETERS BACK FORTH TO HER!!!!!! I FUCKEN HATE HER!!! I JUST WANT TO FUCKEN DIE...I HATE MY FUCKEN LIFE....maybe he doesnt love me anymore...he says he does but i dont know anymore...god i need someone to talk to i need patty, gladys, alex, ricky, and kim...i just need someone to talk to who i can trust..fuck damn it...why does he do this to me...