Last night was one of the worst nights for me. It started out going well. I loved hanging out with my friends and stuff but then it just got weird. Its like it just went down hill and I was at the bottom. Getting hit with everything they had. I liked the little game where we were stuck in the car and stuff that was fun. But slowly I could feel the pressure. Of me having to kiss you. I know you wanted me to, I could tell. But I dont exaclty want to yet. I would like to atleast wait tell firstdate. Or w/e is a good time. Maybe nobody really wants to hear what I have to say....And that what im typing is not gonna flow. I wish you guys could understand or atleast try to reason on something. Rather than just have me do all the work, and get mad when I did something wrong. I really love and and hate to see you get mad at me or something, because It really made me upset to see all the anger when you didnt get what you wanted. Because I really want to be there for you and give you what you want. Please think about this.