I forgot how much I loved this band, but that's not what this entry is about.

I believe one of the worst feelings in the world is being forgotten. I have felt this feeling far too many times in my life. I've felt forgotten by friends, from years ago. People I hardly know anymore. I remember when we used to hang out and goof off, just being a bunch of kids. but look at us now. They're off doing their own thing. Things they're not proud of. My friiend becoming pregnant... two times in the past 2 years. My best friend, being a total pot head. He even looks like it now. I hate how they're throwing their lives away. They can be so successful in life, if they just apply themselves, but no. They want to get knocked up or drugged up. These people, people that have long forgotten me, are people I don't even know anymore.

I'm letting go of them now though, my year long goal.

It's not as easy as it sounds though. You can't just let them go and move on. For me at least, it's a slow process. You have to take in the memories you have and smile for having the chance to make them instead of crying that you won't be able to make them again. That's life. People will come in and out of your life until the day you die, the only thing you have to do is figure out if they're worth fighting to keep in it. Of course, all my friends were worth fighting for, then. but i'm not sure if I'd like them now. They were awesome growing up, but I'm not into being friends with a bunch of pregnant pot heads. Not that I'm prejudice, I'd just hate watching them throw their lives away.

Well, that's enough on this topic. Gets me all sad and shit.